Smell like brand new

How can we get attached to smell? How can it trigger memories...

I was washing my hair and put on some hair mask when the smell get me reminded of my elder sister...

This is how she would smell like...

I don't think she is using the same hair mask as mine, but somehow the smell get me reminded of her in anyway.

The same goes with my mother, there is this shampoo that she always use... now that we live far away.. although not so far away... I bought the same shampoo and use it whenever I miss her... Everytime... I didn't use the same shampoo as her.. I just use the whenever I miss her. So after wash I can smell her presence.

Then it makes me remember when I was a young child, my parents aren't home and you know siblings when often fought for no reason especially when our parents aren't home. This is the time you elder brother or sister feeling superior to you. So one day we fought and I was crying badly and while waiting for my parents to be home I was hugging my dad used clothes to feel his presence. All I know it soothes me. Much.... But I didn't remember what happen next probably I just fall asleep and forget what happens by the time I woke up... You know we will sleep when we cried so much

There's shower gel from bath and body works that carries every memories of time in my life...but top bad I can't use them often due to my eczema

The cherry blossom makes me remind the time I'm in SBPI... because it smells the same as my favourite shower gel at that time... or it's actually the dupe for palmolive sensual aromatherapy... I can't believe that I actually googled for the shower gel I used to wear in secondary school...

and the lavender and vanilla aromatherapy smell like my johnson and johnson no tear baby shampoo... Again it makes me reminded of my childhood time when me and my little brother and sister would wash our hair together and shower together.... ahhh I miss it when we were still babies... How I wish we can return back to the time...

It's just about the shampoo and the shower gel but really these smell really evoke some memories in me...

I didn't talk about how the smell of garss after them being cut makes me feel refreshed and feel vibrant.

The smell of the new books makes me feel extavagant and smart...

The smell hot pastry from bakery.. The smell of croissant.. ahh it makes my stomach rumbles haha

I shouldn't share too much of my emotions online. Haha

Signing off. Bye

Paediatrics posting

I remember the last time I wrote here when I was ending my first posting, "I'm okay with anything but not pediatrics for now". But guess what the Lord has assigned for me next, Pediatrics posting. Of all posting I was sent to pediatrics department after I've finished my orthopedics posting. It's is really funny though, how fate works.

Now, I'm at the very end of posting. God gracious, I've passed my end of posting yesterday, and as always I underestimate myself that I'm expecting myself to failed the assessment and at least I need 2 times to actually pass but who knows my supervisor are well satisfied with my answer. I'm grateful to Allah for this and thankful to my supervisor too. Now, I'm ready to start the unknown posting at the early of May and tagging during Ramadhan as today is the 1st of Ramadhah. Happy fasting! :)
God bless all of my posting mate. I pray we will do okay throughout the tagging period and Ramadhan.

Anyways, I will just summarize everything that I remember throughout this posting because yo girl is so lazy to update every time. If you ask me what is the most significant thing that I remember in this posting, I would say it is, blood taking. Indeed. Yes, blood taking is the hardest in paediatrics. I remember the first day I was posted to block B, where all the child other than neonates are admitted. Blood taking is difficult here, because the child, oh my god! It is a laborious procedure. The child fights back, some of them will try to bite and even spit on you. Here, you will need at least 2 person to take blood. Some of this child are cute and were very nice during blood taking so you will be the most grateful person, but then they're some that are hard to be managed. We had more than 4 people sometimes because these child, though they are child, they had this monstrous energy. I really could't fight them back. And then in Block A, where the neonates are. These baby of course they can't really fight back, though some would actually kick you. Imagine baby kicking your hand when you are waiting their blood, drops by drops to fill the tube and then dislodged the needles, after a hard time (sometimes) to find the best vein. I almost changed to monster sometimes but babies... you can't be ad at them. Boleh bebel, bebel jelah. Haha. I learnt that blood taking from premature babies is easier than term babies, because they have thin skin as compared to those plump term babies. Wow I wrote a long paragraph on blood taking only, I haven't talk about how many times we need to repeat those blood because the potassium was high because babies their blood is easier to hemolyse and then drop method if you happen to squeeze a bit, a very bit during blood taking, welcome to the repeated renal profile and vbg. Duh... I was writing this and was blushing out of nowhere because suddenly I think this is the sweet moments but when the actual moment occured, I was utterly annoyed.

Hmm.. what else I remember during pediatrics? Bad bloods. Siti call them bad bloods. Bullies. They're bullies. You can't deny it. Those who are mean to every person, they exist in every posting, but I don't know. I really lazy to get involved with these people but they seem to 'like' me very much. Trying to find faults in everything I do, when sometimes they're other people dancing with mistakes and no one bats an eye one them. Ah malaslah nak cerita lagi. Ruining my mood. I don't like them and very happy to leave them, though I know next and next posting we will see this kind of people over and over. But I choose to say goodbye. Goodbye, I don't want to see you guys again, no sorry and thank you either.

I will miss the air conditioned Block A though. I work better in cold temperature. I know how terrible I act when I felt hot haha after this it will be hot hot and hot ward posting. Maybe labour room is not.
Talking about labour room, I was hoping my next posting to be O&G.  Because no one wants to be in O&G at the end of their housemanship haha. I dare not say anything. But if it is medicine pun boleh lah. Basically, where I end up will be more and more tiring than paediatrics and orthopaedics. Hahaha
When I told everyone I have finished my paediatrics and orthopedics first, semua pun act like you are so unlucky because you finished all the chill posting haha. I don't know what to say. Whatever it is as usual, I'm just okay, next. Hahaha. We will wait for my third posting annoncement and I'll update ( kalau rajin). Bye!