Hari ini aku merasakan sudah tiba untuk aku meluahkan walaupun bukan secara terus pada kau. Mungkin kau sampai bila-bila pun takkan tahu dan ambil peduli tapi at least aku mencuba. Dan mungkin juga kau secara tak sengaja menjumpai post ini yang aku pasti mungkin atas bantuan takdir Illahi. Sama ada kau tahu atau tidak akhirny , aku tak peduli tapi yang pasti kini aku ingin untuk mewujudkan jalan untuk kau temui. Perkara tahu atau ta tahu itu kita letak tepi dulu.
Entah mengapa hari ini aku disedarkan oleh kata-kata seseorang, yang pernah aku baca atau dengar. Aku sendiri tak pasti dari mana aku dapat kata-kata ini. Tapi yang pasti kata-kata itulah yang membuatkan aku tergerak untuk menyatakannya hari ini.
" Aku tak nak menyesal suatu hari nanti. Bila aku tengok hidup dia, tengok hidup aku. Lepas tu berfikir, kalau dia tahu apa rasa aku. Apa pengakhiran kita orang?"That's it. Penyesalan atau rasa ingin tahu. Aku pun tak tahu nak kategorikan kata-kata ini dalam bahagian yang mana. Yang aku tahu kata-kata orang ini membuatkan aku rasa. Baik aku luah. What the outcome that might come after doesn't important. Kecewa atau bahagia. Peduli apa. Kecewa? Terima dah orang tak suka nak buat macam mana. Bahagia? Alhamdullilah. At least, we had that definite answer rather than like this hoping and questioning, ' who am I to him?'. Lepas itu, hidup menunggu that satu hari, dia tiba-tiba dapat telepathy said, " This one girl that you met in your past actually love you till now and she will wait for you to come to her and said I love you too". Lepas itu, happy ending macam cerita fairy tales. Like that. But this is real life, nobody would ever care or realize until you tell them clearly. That's sucks but this is the reality.
So, today. I would like to tell you who was born on 25th August 1994, that I once love you and till today
( 08th December 2013), I still do and InsyaAllah I will do till forever. I know was in big denial 2 years ago but I'm sorry. I just need time to think and realize. And know I realize. People may say that I'm too late but I don't even care as long as I got that chance and don't feel the burden. You don't need to accept me. You got the choice and I'm quite understanding too. LOL. haha. Yeah, people do expect but not all expectation hit the jackpot, right? So, just chill man. Thank you for reading and realizing that, this is for you.
At some point, people might say that 'Kalau dah jodoh takkan ke mana', so don't worry. So, actually at some point, I'm testing it. That's why there is no such thing as name. No such thing as I tagged he inside this post or telling him that I wrote this for him. He has no idea the existence of this post. What I'm trying to do now is to let the fate find it's way. At least, I express myself and now I put my belief in takdir Allah :)
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| You:) |
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| Don't ask me how and why. |
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| To be truth, I tried to but I just can't . I can't. |
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| I don't wanna be like this. Because I don't want end up, regretting it. So I write this |
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