Many things happen since my last post.
A lot of miracle, happy and tears shed these past days.
I never thought of finding someone to be with.
I'm okay with being alone
I treasure my alone time
But somehow one day I stumble upon this one guy.
I instantly feel comfortable and was able to talk about anything with him.
I was honest about how I'm feeling and being direct with everything.
He makes me feel comfortable.
So I thought it was love.
I grown attached to him, really really attached.
I want to talk and see him everyday.
I went to an extend to confessed to him.
Because my mind thinks it was the correct thing to do at that time
At the same time, my instinct feel something fishy about him.
Something was not right.
But I choose to bypass it.
Maybe it was just me overthinking as usual
But it turns out to be something.
He is someone I shouldn't get involved it.
I walk away.
I walk away as soon as I found out about it.
It was the best decision I made.
Maybe it was hard at first
But now I'm glad I make it
And now I blooming.
I'm happy, way more happy than when I'm with him
Because even though I'm comfortable with him
I get insecure.
I get insecure and way more sad and lonely.
I always feel like I'm not worth it.
But now, I don't think so
I'm more than he deserve
I deserve better
I have grown out of the attachment.
I realize that being attached means you can be detached.
It wasn't anything permanent.
and an attachment that feels right doesn't necessarily a correct.
Turns out I was just lonely and someone came and I thought he could fill the void.
But he wasn't what I actually need.
I need me.
I just wake up and realize I lost myself
That's why
But now I'm awake and flying :)
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