Smell like brand new

How can we get attached to smell? How can it trigger memories...

I was washing my hair and put on some hair mask when the smell get me reminded of my elder sister...

This is how she would smell like...

I don't think she is using the same hair mask as mine, but somehow the smell get me reminded of her in anyway.

The same goes with my mother, there is this shampoo that she always use... now that we live far away.. although not so far away... I bought the same shampoo and use it whenever I miss her... Everytime... I didn't use the same shampoo as her.. I just use the whenever I miss her. So after wash I can smell her presence.

Then it makes me remember when I was a young child, my parents aren't home and you know siblings when often fought for no reason especially when our parents aren't home. This is the time you elder brother or sister feeling superior to you. So one day we fought and I was crying badly and while waiting for my parents to be home I was hugging my dad used clothes to feel his presence. All I know it soothes me. Much.... But I didn't remember what happen next probably I just fall asleep and forget what happens by the time I woke up... You know we will sleep when we cried so much

There's shower gel from bath and body works that carries every memories of time in my life...but top bad I can't use them often due to my eczema

The cherry blossom makes me remind the time I'm in SBPI... because it smells the same as my favourite shower gel at that time... or it's actually the dupe for palmolive sensual aromatherapy... I can't believe that I actually googled for the shower gel I used to wear in secondary school...

and the lavender and vanilla aromatherapy smell like my johnson and johnson no tear baby shampoo... Again it makes me reminded of my childhood time when me and my little brother and sister would wash our hair together and shower together.... ahhh I miss it when we were still babies... How I wish we can return back to the time...

It's just about the shampoo and the shower gel but really these smell really evoke some memories in me...

I didn't talk about how the smell of garss after them being cut makes me feel refreshed and feel vibrant.

The smell of the new books makes me feel extavagant and smart...

The smell hot pastry from bakery.. The smell of croissant.. ahh it makes my stomach rumbles haha

I shouldn't share too much of my emotions online. Haha

Signing off. Bye

Paediatrics posting

I remember the last time I wrote here when I was ending my first posting, "I'm okay with anything but not pediatrics for now". But guess what the Lord has assigned for me next, Pediatrics posting. Of all posting I was sent to pediatrics department after I've finished my orthopedics posting. It's is really funny though, how fate works.

Now, I'm at the very end of posting. God gracious, I've passed my end of posting yesterday, and as always I underestimate myself that I'm expecting myself to failed the assessment and at least I need 2 times to actually pass but who knows my supervisor are well satisfied with my answer. I'm grateful to Allah for this and thankful to my supervisor too. Now, I'm ready to start the unknown posting at the early of May and tagging during Ramadhan as today is the 1st of Ramadhah. Happy fasting! :)
God bless all of my posting mate. I pray we will do okay throughout the tagging period and Ramadhan.

Anyways, I will just summarize everything that I remember throughout this posting because yo girl is so lazy to update every time. If you ask me what is the most significant thing that I remember in this posting, I would say it is, blood taking. Indeed. Yes, blood taking is the hardest in paediatrics. I remember the first day I was posted to block B, where all the child other than neonates are admitted. Blood taking is difficult here, because the child, oh my god! It is a laborious procedure. The child fights back, some of them will try to bite and even spit on you. Here, you will need at least 2 person to take blood. Some of this child are cute and were very nice during blood taking so you will be the most grateful person, but then they're some that are hard to be managed. We had more than 4 people sometimes because these child, though they are child, they had this monstrous energy. I really could't fight them back. And then in Block A, where the neonates are. These baby of course they can't really fight back, though some would actually kick you. Imagine baby kicking your hand when you are waiting their blood, drops by drops to fill the tube and then dislodged the needles, after a hard time (sometimes) to find the best vein. I almost changed to monster sometimes but babies... you can't be ad at them. Boleh bebel, bebel jelah. Haha. I learnt that blood taking from premature babies is easier than term babies, because they have thin skin as compared to those plump term babies. Wow I wrote a long paragraph on blood taking only, I haven't talk about how many times we need to repeat those blood because the potassium was high because babies their blood is easier to hemolyse and then drop method if you happen to squeeze a bit, a very bit during blood taking, welcome to the repeated renal profile and vbg. Duh... I was writing this and was blushing out of nowhere because suddenly I think this is the sweet moments but when the actual moment occured, I was utterly annoyed.

Hmm.. what else I remember during pediatrics? Bad bloods. Siti call them bad bloods. Bullies. They're bullies. You can't deny it. Those who are mean to every person, they exist in every posting, but I don't know. I really lazy to get involved with these people but they seem to 'like' me very much. Trying to find faults in everything I do, when sometimes they're other people dancing with mistakes and no one bats an eye one them. Ah malaslah nak cerita lagi. Ruining my mood. I don't like them and very happy to leave them, though I know next and next posting we will see this kind of people over and over. But I choose to say goodbye. Goodbye, I don't want to see you guys again, no sorry and thank you either.

I will miss the air conditioned Block A though. I work better in cold temperature. I know how terrible I act when I felt hot haha after this it will be hot hot and hot ward posting. Maybe labour room is not.
Talking about labour room, I was hoping my next posting to be O&G.  Because no one wants to be in O&G at the end of their housemanship haha. I dare not say anything. But if it is medicine pun boleh lah. Basically, where I end up will be more and more tiring than paediatrics and orthopaedics. Hahaha
When I told everyone I have finished my paediatrics and orthopedics first, semua pun act like you are so unlucky because you finished all the chill posting haha. I don't know what to say. Whatever it is as usual, I'm just okay, next. Hahaha. We will wait for my third posting annoncement and I'll update ( kalau rajin). Bye!

Let go

I have trouble letting go these days. Read a lot and a lot of motivational words. How to be accepting, how not to push yourself. It's harder, it's even more harder when you are trying to let go something that is so near to you. Learning to accept that no matter how near it is, it is still not yours. You gotta let go. I know it's hard. Everything is hard. But remember everything in the past that you think is hard. It has passed and now you are here and better

Housemanship and orthopaedics posting

I haven't updated about my current life.

It has been almost four month I started my house manship in Hospital Sultanah Aminah. 

It wasn't my first choice, not even in my choice list. 

But there might be something here for me. 

I'm always like that doesn't really care I go. 

I have started my housemanship with orthopaedics. 

Things are tough and dramatic at first

They love drama

I'm not ashamed to tell you I have shed tears in this posting

Even though everyone says it is the chillest posting

But it is still not my cup of tea

The environment doesn't suit me

But not everything is bad for me

In ortho, I've discovered that I like surgical stuff better

I feel alive in OT but not in ward

I have discovered that doing surgery excites me

Scrubbed in and even though being just an assistant I feel passionate. 

Other than that, ortho obviously has been checked out from something that I Co spider to do in future

Maybe the management is direct and clear but I have no interest in it. 

Second, I don't have power and energy. 

Did I tell you guys how painful it is for me to lift and hold patient limbs during surgery. If you're not lucky enough you get obese patient, Rip spine. 

My backache totally disallow me to pursue in ortho. 

Then, you really need energy to pull dislocated limb, to stabilise broken fracture. 

I tried and cold sweat and tears coming out. 

They said when you pursue ortho you body will get buff up sooner or later. 

It isn't something I would. I prefer my soft, weak muscle body better haha

Maybe that's all for now. 

I'm going to transfer out from this department this new year. 

We still don't know what's our next posting. I'm okay with anything but not paediatric for now 

Until then... Sign off😉

Attachment can be detached

It has been awhile and today I feel like writing.
Many things happen since my last post.
A lot of miracle, happy and tears shed these past days.

I never thought of finding someone to be with.
I'm okay with being alone
I treasure my alone time
But somehow one day I stumble upon this one guy.
I instantly feel comfortable and was able to talk about anything with him.
I was honest about how I'm feeling and being direct with everything.
He makes me feel comfortable.
So I thought it was love.
I grown attached to him, really really attached.
I want to talk and see him everyday.
I went to an extend to confessed to him.
Because my mind thinks it was the correct thing to do at that time
At the same time, my instinct feel something fishy about him.
Something was not right.
But I choose to bypass it.
Maybe it was just me overthinking as usual
But it turns out to be something.
He is someone I shouldn't get involved it.
I walk away.
I walk away as soon as I found out about it.
It was the best decision I made.
Maybe it was hard at first
But now I'm glad I make it
And now I blooming.
I'm happy, way more happy than when I'm with him
Because even though I'm comfortable with him
I get insecure.
I get insecure and way more sad and lonely.
I always feel like I'm not worth it.

But now, I don't think so
I'm more than he deserve
I deserve better
I have grown out of the attachment.
I realize that being attached means you can be detached.
It wasn't anything permanent.
and an attachment that feels right doesn't necessarily a correct.
Turns out I was just lonely and someone came and I thought he could fill the void.
But he wasn't what I actually need.
I need me.
I just wake up and realize I lost myself
That's why
But now I'm awake and flying :)

The end of year 4

Hey there!

Again and again it has been a long time since my last post.
I just finished my year four in medical and god gracious the result just came out today.
I don't know how to describe the feelings though.
It's like some kind of excitement and vivid-like like feeling.
Like I'm having a dream.
I still couldn't believe that I passed my year 4.
Yeah I know what kind of lousy student I am.
So there's no big hope or what not.
But alhamdullilah I passed :)

I think the last time I post was when I was in psychiatric posting.
and again thank god as all of my rotation passed their psychiatric posting.
Good job guys!
Then. short and challenging posting was coming.
Oh my god, you don't know what am I feeling.
It's too fast that you can't even processed what are you actually learning.
Each posting only last 2-3 weeks
But thank god, I had friends to rely on.
We had group discussion and everything become simplified and easier
especially for 'last minute' kind of person of me.
To think back, it's funny that during all these short posting I can actually become so obsessed with knitting, crocheting and embroidery stuff and sometimes drawing.
It's crazy! really!
Hahahaha
I would drag my time for study to knit, crochet and stuff.
We had like 3 weeks roughly and half of the weeks given was used to complete my so called 'art projects'.
It was so so so severe that my friends called my art student instead of medical student.
I think I'm better off as art student though hahaha
Lesson is, do a study group. It's never too late. You can still grab it! AS LONG AS YOU'RE NOT FINAL YEAR STUDENT.
I promise when I start final year soon, I will repent. PROMISE! I will be a good student.

To sum up the posting I've going on.
Right after we finished our psychiatric posting with bipolar case.
We start ENT posting right away the next day.
The lecturer was the best of the best.
Like they're cool but the get the job done.
Teaching are easily understood.
Thanks Dr, Tang, Dr. Chai, Dr.Soe and Dr Nazir. Oh Dr. Kelvin too though we only meet him on the first day and OT day.
You all did a great job. Trust me. Hahaha
But I won't choose  ENT as my future.
It's just that cleaning, or seeing mucus and ear wax of others? Not my thing hahahaha

Presenting ENT Seminar

Then we had CDL.
It's just a detail part of what we had learnt throughout the years of medical school
But ....
It scares the shit out of me.
Because Dr told us that if we fail OSCE mean we fail the whole posting.
Somehow, during OSCE exam I think I messed up 2 station. Like seriously 2 station.
I was unable to identify P. Knowlesi.
That shit sucked the life out of me. I even question the question given itself because Prof said it was hard to differentiate P. Knowlesi from microscope viewing and what not. Then, all my friends came up with 'Kapit' as the clue that the organism viewwd was P. Knowlesi.
I was like, noooooooooooo still you cannot identify organism using Kapit as a clue. That was wrong.
Still in denial haha
but whatever, I don't know that's P. Knowlesi but I passed my CDL posting. Next time, I will study harder okay!
The second station was on Minimal Change Disease. I just confused the part where I should write the diagnosis and the cause.
Well, as always the confuse me.

and our very last posting before we start our elective was ophthalmology.
Let me be honest, this is my favourite posting.
Even before we start, even before I'm in medical school, even before I'm taking my PMR and SPM.
Yes.
It's too much but that's the truth though.
I've been waiting for this posting for so so so long.
I like eyes. Really, really, really, really (read: lili, lili,lili,lili) like eyes.*I hope in few years I would understand why I wrote this as lili hahaha
I even volunteer for class leader. That's how I'm so excited. Haha

In Normah Medical Centre for opthalmology BST

But I can't change the fact that I'm a lazy person and 'last posting syndrome' kind of affecting me in some way. Hahaha
But I enjoy this posting the most.
I even feel like joining Prof Lim's OT sometimes if he allow me. Maybe I should ask. Should I?

That's it my summary for each short posting. I know my summary is very short. That's me I'm good at cutting everything short hahaha
The great thing is all of my batchmates was promoted to year 5. That's the best thing ever! See you guys in 2 months :)
This Saturday, we'll left Sarawak for elective in Tawau Hospital. Let's see what would happen there soon. Bye!

Muka bahagia habis exam

Rabbit me. 23 years old aren't too late for this cute filter thingy kan?

DIY a dream catcher

Hey there!

I just finished my first piece of a dream catcher.
I always want a dream catcher for a very long time ago.
I even tried to purchase a ready made dream catcher before this but they're super expensive for a dream catcher so I just forget it.

I choose to DIY my own, the only, and the specially custom-made (of course)  DREAM CATCHER! Yeay!

Below is the tutorial on how I make my own custom-made dream catcher.

Materials:

• Hoop. I used the embroidery hoop that I got from DAISO. 15 cm in diameter
• A Doily. You can just buy a ready made doily or knit it yourself. I knit it myself :) it was about 5 '' size.
• Strings spool / yarn, yarn and yarn haha
• Paper rope/ ribbons
• Lace material, lace materials and lace materials or you can just use any fabris that you want
• Feathers
• Beads and small colourful bells
• Handicraft glue or to be easier a strong glue

Instructions:

1. Wrap around the entire hoop with a fabrics/ rope. I use  pink paper rope for mine.
2. Finish wrapping the hoop by securing the fabrics with a glue and trim the remaining fabrics/ rope.
3. Then, I use the doily that I knit before hand and using the yarn I weave the doily inside the hoop and add beads to it as I go on. Sorry I forgot to take picture for this. For the pattern of the doily I got it from Crafttown.com using pattern Snowflakes doily.

   

   This is how the snowflakes doily suppose to look like before I weave it

4. After that, using the string spool, ribbons, lace materials, the excess paper rope that I have, I hang it down from the bottom of the dream catcher. You just fold the fabrics/ string in half and then create a simple loop and pull the fabric through. Do as many as you want and pick your combination of string, lace, ribbons that YOUR HEART DESIRE!
5. To add on the embellishment, I take the beads and the small colourful bells and sew the thread in and secure with knots.
6. It's time to hang the feathers. For the feathers, begin to wrap the long length of thread around the feathers and tie it securely. You can add on embellishment on the feather by adding beads etc.

DONE!

This is how my dream catcher looks like. It was super easy and took a short time to be done.

Hang it above the bed headboard!

So what do you think?

Comment below :)

Goodbye!

My hostel room transformation

I've been living in hostel room like, roughly, 6 years. The first time that I live far from my family was when I was sixteen, I was sent to a boarding school for the first time in my life. Of course, it was hard at the first time but you just kinda get used to it and live on, though if you ask me I would say I love my home better. Home sweet home, right?

Okay, cut it short.
I actually wanted to share to you guys the transformation that I've done to my current hostel room in Lot 77, Kolej Kasturi. I always did a small transformation before this to my past room but so far this transformation was the biggest and the one that used up my money T.T

But it's okay.
In the end I like the transformation so so much. I feel like home here now.

Here's the before and after transformation.

Okay first we take a look at my study table.

This is my roommate's study table before. I forgot to take picture of mine. It's almost the same basic table so, I'll just use hers. Haha.

For the study table, what I do was just purchasing a :

•  60 meters length of 'very elegant' wallpaper from Kaison, 
• 3 cork board ( 2 of large size and 1 small size) for MR.DIY,
• Cute pink wooden letter from MR. DIY
• A lot of wooden label from MR.DIY
• Japanese lace from DAISO
• Heart shaped push pin from DAISO
• Cute note holder 'tree shaped' from MR.DIY
• An electrical aromatherapy light from LOVELY LACE

So, all I did was make use of the wallpaper and wrap the 'basic' study table that I've. The reason I use wallpaper rather than usual wrapper is that it water resistant so you don't have to buy plastic wrapper to double wrap it again. Then I use the extra wallpaper to make my notice board. The outline of the notice board I stick the Japanese lace that I got from DAISO and add on some motivational lettering on the notice board. I use two large cork boards for notes and reminder. As you can see below the cork boards I wrote the 'deadline' for reminder of any assignment deadline etc. I also had reminders for the upcoming exams. I use the smaller cork board as a timetable. 

After transformation. 

This is the zoom out of it.

Now, the bed. As you can see the bed and the wall above the head board was so so so plain.

Bed before.

So,  I bought a new comforter set from Parkson, use the extra wall paper that I had to make a picture gallery above the head board. 

Can you see, the large clock above the head board and my picture gallery board? I purchase it from MR.DIY. It is very light weight. It is actually a sticker clock. Yes. The clock was functioning. Don't worry.

I want to change the curtain but it will be too much for me. LOL

The carpet was from my old room. I've purchase it long time ago.

Yes marroon, pink is my ultimate theme

Bed after transformation

Okay, considering the costs, I just use the old book shelves that I had since I was in Year 1 of medical school. I just stick a wallpaper above the selves to give it a new look.

Then I just put my knitting stuff and flowers, also my aromatherapy candle on it and done!

And I also add some motivational lettering above it. Stay bubbly!

Above side table.

That's it.

What do you guys think?

Radiology posting, knitting and my bucket list!

Hey there!

After sudden end in last post, I come back.

I already finished one week of radiology posting and tomorrow gonna be a second week.

In radiology posting, we had only 2 week. Yes. 2 week to learn radiology through thick and thin.

We had to learn the modalities in radiology like; x-rays, ultrasound, CT scan, angiogram, fluoroscopy, angiography and MRI in this 2 week. But it is a 'chill' posting and the doctors teaching us was very fun *forgive me for my lack of vocabulary to explain how excellent they are. 

But I truly enjoy the learning.. Yeah at least I can grab what are they saying without the hassle to re-read back every time after class. I hasn't started my revision yet though exam is next week. But I believe I can to well(read: hope so!)

But, now I was not that into studying thus, the post. I spent this week doing something that I enjoy, that is, knitting...! yeah knit few things in this week. I knit a butterfly, a snowflakes, a 4 leaf- clover for my friends and a coaster. I also knit something that I want to put to the center of my soon to be made 'dream catchers' but because I don't have the things needed right now I'll have to postpone my project. Oh! I can't wait for my bulk of yarns arriving from guangzhou. I want to knit a blanket. Actually I want to knit a chunky blanket but don't know where to find a supreme, large, chunky yarns that they used and of course they are super expensive so, considering I'm so broke right now maybe I just knit a simple blanket. I hope that 20 skeins of yarns that I ordered would be enough for the project.

4 leaves clover. They believes that it brings luck and based on what I read each leaf mean; love, luck, faith and hope. I give to Joyah and Ravi. Actually I knit extra for someone that I like but I don't know how to give him.

This is my first snowflakes. I knit it because the aunties in the knitting group was so excited knitting this for upcoming Christmas. I just join them because I find it cute.

The butterfly! One skein of 20 g yarn was used for this. Actually I wanted to dye it to gives beautiful real shades to the flower but I don't know where to find fabric dyes, and of course I don't have time to look for it. So it opt out to knit it using a pink gradient cotton lace yarn to knit the flowers. But it turn out beautiful too right. Just say so.

This is a coaster I knit but I think I want to put it to the center of my dream catchers. Below I give you the pattern. I read the pattern wrongly at the end of the round so it's a bit different

They called this doily. I knit this also for the purpose of the dream catchers. It is quite big, about 14 cm diameter. Below is the pattern

This is the dream catcher that I plan on making. I want to do a Boho style dream catcher.

I think instagram, facebook and twitter platform was ruining my blog post. I mean I always update things there so when I want to update here. I lost the ideas.

Hmm..

Oh yeah currently I'm working on my bucket lists. I don't know if I can do all the things that I listed but I'll try my best. I want to start my bucket list as early as possibly but money, time and priorities.

I mean I need to focus my studies. I absolutely lacking in finance right now. It's sad. I'll have to wait when me. myself making money, only then I can do the high cost stuff that I dream off and of course I had time constraints right now. But I'll have to figure out it later. 

The important thing in my bucket list right now was to find a 'partner in crime' that would be pleased to join me in my adventure and all. Of course , doing all these things would be better if we had someone else joining us right. Some more, if I was going to travel, I don't think my parents would allow me to go alone and they would never want to join me also. I had so much to consider right now for my bucket list. Wish me for the the luck!

P/S: I know I promised many times already. But I'll update the CMPH posting. I will. I will. I will. Then I'll post some picture of my hostel room transformation okay! :) 

I hang them above my bed headboard along with my mum, dad and little sister photos

Goodbye!

I think I should learn how to give a good title to my post haha

District and family medicine posting

*mic on

Today is the third day from the third week of my Family medicine posting.
Yes. Week three already.
I already finished my District posting in Serian Hospital for three weeks beforehand, currently I was in Family Medicine posting. Actually both of this posting was combined together so it was like 6 weeks? that I've been in current posting and I actually don't know what's going right now.
Honestly.
Our district posting was basically going to the hospital and clerk when we have to. Filling up logbooks of procedure need to be done etc in hospital setting. There's nothing much going on except the adrenaline rush that comes when 'malignant doctor' come for our BST or seminar presentation.
If I was being honest, my life as a medical student was dull. Haha
yeah dull
...
Some more in Serian Hospital, we don't have case as much as what we got in Sarawak General Hospital and usually it was just a common cases. So yeah~ that's it.

Yes.
I know I'm boring but there's actually nothing much to tell and considering it happen few weeks back so, I cannot retrace back what happen.
And if I got something interesting that I remember I cannot tell you guys though because of patient privacy even if nowadays patient themselves doesn't take care of their own privacy by posting everything that they think was something interesting to be posted on social media. Dengan kata lain, 'viral' kan semua benda. lol

Oh!
I was in family medicine posting now. It has been interesting up until today when I was super tired from the clinic 'exploring'. I don't think it is interesting anymore lol. I'm joking.

Family medicine was really really really interesting because doctors get their seat and table not like in ward. Haha *Please pardon my boring humour

I like the clinic setting. It was so chill and relax 'as a medical student', not for the doctors of course. They had to serve like 600- 1k of patient each day depend on the where is the clinic they're working. Like OMG!
I cannot.
But whatever, that's what doctors have to do anyways.
Here, of course, rarely acute cases can be seen. What's common in Klinik kesihatan was things like Diabetes, Hypertension etc. and I was in Klinik Ibu dan Anak (MCHC), the case seen there would be normal antenatal check up, booking visits, cases like nenonatal jaundice, diabetes during pregnancy, hypertension during pregnancy and the list go on.

We also had GP(general practicioner posting), in Klinik Petra somewhere in Satok. Dr Azizah was very nice and we actually the difference between KK and GP clinic. The environment that was absolutely different. We actually learned few new things. I get to see IUCD insertion for the first time.

I'm sorry I got to go now. I think I had gastritis, I loss my appetite lately and have not eating well maybe because of the URTI that I got from patient in GP clinic
Bye!
See you later.
I will write about CMPH posting in different post!

The fourth year.

Hi, there!
Haha we meet again and of course after a long time.
If I'm not mistaken the last time I wrote about my life was in January, that is, when I'm still in year three.
Guess what? I passed my year three and now it's the third week of year four.
I finished on short posting. Forensic posting, that I scared the most. Not the study that I scared, at least not as much as I am scared to the corpse. You might think it's funny for me to be in medical school when my body froze when I heard corpse or anything related to death.
I still remember the first time I saw corpse was when I was in Asasi. It is when they first introduce us to the faculty where I belong now. How terrified am I that time. But then I get over it, if not much at least I don't get chills when I heard the word 'corpse'.
But this time, it come again. Maybe now I was less scared to our anatomy corpse, though I still don't have the strength to touch them. Like ever!. However, for this forensic posting, we had to observe post mortem examination. I visited mortuary last time to see the deceased and of course I was scared. Moreover, the fact that this time they died tragically and we had to see decompose body ( I don't think I had to explain how decomposed body smell like).  I don't really see them.
But to think that later on, we must observe one post mortem examination and write a report on it. I have lost my word. Hmm...

Currently, I was in CMPH posting and please trust me I don't know what CMPH stand for. Haha.
Okay, I'll look for it now

....

Yass..! It's Community Medicine and Public Health posting. Actually it was clearly written on the guidebook which I don't bother read. Sorry for that!
CMPH posting was different from what my senior told me last time. They said it would be fun and you all will be playing the whole posting and they even suggested me to make it the last posting in year four but somehow things happen, so I end up having it as the first rotation.
But that's not the porblem here. The problem is when I first read the timetable, I was in shock. It was far from what they told us. T.T
It was really really packed. I repeat, really really packed. Where on earth the time to play? I can even find time to get extra sleep. Duhh...
and the worst is we have to do a research. Research!
I still remember the last time we do research was when were in year two. I don't know how to describe the situation but yeah.. research... Whatever it is I still to face it though. Redha je lah.
Oh! as the posting name itself describe, we will get involved with the community. Maybe I later on I can update you guys in that. But we will see. Haha.
From what the coordinator said, we will get involve with community in Rumah Panjang Philip Kayak (long house). So, just wait for the post about it later.

Wait! I forget to tell you now it is Ramadhan. Fasting month. The month where I was a lot braver, because the satan,  ghost and its family was tied. If it is not too late, I wish you Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. :) and early "Selamat Hari Raya!".
What else...

...

I don't know what else to write. I think that's it. Pray that my fourth year in medical school would be smooth and silky (Haha). Pray that I will pass all my posting for this year and graduated on time. My friends in other faculty has finished their final year project and final paper. Congratulation for them. I hope you graduated with flying colors. Goodbye!

There was no purpose of this picture.

SyeikhaZ.

Permohonan UPU ke IPTA sesi 2016/2017

Step by step Permohonan UPU ke IPTA sesi 2016/2017 bagi permohonan kali pertama. Ini khas bagi lepasan SPM 2015. Tujuan asal untuk guide adik aku yang nak memohon tapi kalau orang lain yang tak ada abang atau kakak untuk ajar boleh je refer. Aku terpaksa buat guide macam ni sebab kitaorang duduk jauh antara satu sama lain dan aku tak nak buatkan sebab aku nak bagi dia belajar buat sendiri dan rasa bertanggungjawab rather than biar oang lain buatkan dan goyang kaki.

First step of all, pergi beli no pin BSN * boleh rujuk poster di bawah.

Second, klik link  untuk ke web, Sistem Permohonan Kemasukan Pelajar Ke UA/ Politeknik, Kolej Komuniti dan ILKA

Third, follow panduan gambar di bawah. Sekali lagi diingatkan, ini adalah untuk pendaftaran kali pertama bagi lepasan SPM 2015 (Kategori A).

Bila klik link di atas korang akan dibawa ke muka laman web seperti gambar di atas.  Klik daftar kali pertama, pastikan anda sudah membeli no. unik ID BSN. Selepas itu download manual pengguna bagi pelajar lepasan SPM.

Seterusnya, anda harus memilih jenis permohonan. Terpulang pada pilihan anda. Dalam gambar, saya memilih untuk Kemasukan ke UA(Universiti Awam)/ Politeknik Premier.

Kemudian,  pilih program pengajian anda. Untuk tutorial ini, saya memilih Lepasan SPM dan setaraf.

Pilih kategori anda. SPM Kategori A untuk Lepasan SPM 2015 dan Kategori B untuk Lepasan SPM 2013 dan 2014.

Akhir sekali, anda akan dibawa ke muka ini. Isi kesemua maklumat yang diperlukan. dan klik daftar . SIAP!

 Jangan lupa untuk merekodkan password/ kata laluan anda ditempat yang selamat. Kalau ikut pengalaman saaya, saya buat satu buku khas untuk permohonan ke universiti. Dalam tu, diacatatkan semua maklumat permohonan termasuk password. Lagi pun kita bukan mohon satu dua benda sahaja, banyak borang permohonan yang kita perlu isi lagi lagi bagi sesiapa yang berminat untuk memohon universiti swasta dan lain-lain. Jadi langkah terbaik adalah bertindak dengan sistematik.
 Jangan lupa catatkan tarikh-tarikh penting seperti tarikh permohonan dibuka dan ditutup, tarikh keputsan keluar dan lain-lain. Dengan telefon bimbit canggih sekarang, boleh catat dalam kalendar dan pasang alert untuk tarikh tarikh ini.

Berikut adalagh tarikh tarikh penting untuk Lepasan SPM dan setaraf bagi Permohonan UPU.

Kalau masih belum pasti lagi universiti dan bidang yang anda ingin pohon, boleh pergi dan sertai Karnival #Jom masuk IPT  pada ketentuan berikut. Kumpul maklumat dan analisis, bandingkan pilihan yang ada sebelum memohon. Jangan lupa berbincang dengan ibu bapa anda. Selamat datang ke alam universiti. Selamat berjaya!.

Berikut adalah waktu mula dan tamat karnival. Masuk ke Karnival Jom Masuk IPT/U adalah percuma.

• 9:00 pagi - 6:00 petang (Semenanjung Malaysia)
• 8:30 pagi - 5:30 petang (Sabah & Sarawak)

Untuk mendapatkan maklumat yang lebih lanjut, sila hubungi UPU di talian helpline 03-8870 6777 atau 03-8870 6755 / 6778.

Semoga maklumat yang diperolehi dapat membantu bakal mahasiswa dalam membuat pilihan tepat sebelum memohon ke UA / IPTA / ILKA.

Harap dapat membantu! Bye! ;)

Nota kaki: Untuk log in yang seterusnya, gunakan no. kad pengenalan dan kata laluan (jangan lupa, nanti menyesal) dan jenis lepasan anda dan daftar masuk seperti biasa.

Della Ding (丁噹 / Ding Dang) Yang Cong (洋蔥) Onion

Hanzi / Chinese Lyrics 歌詞

如果你眼神能夠為我 片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到 心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你 沉默的等奇蹟
沉默的讓自己 像是空氣

大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多開心
最角落裡的我 笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我 永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隱藏著自己

如果你願意一層一層
一層的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我最壓抑最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層
一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我看到我的全心全意

聽你說你和你的他們 曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望 裝得很風趣
我就像一顆洋蔥 永遠是配角戲
多希望能與你 有一秒專屬的劇情

如果你願意一層一層
一層的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我最壓抑最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層
一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我看到我的全心全意

如果你願意一層一層
一層的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我最壓抑最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層
一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我 看到我的全心全意
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我 看到我的全心全意

Hanyu Pinyin Lyrics

rú guǒ nǐ yǎn shén néng gòu wéi wǒ piān kè de jiàng lín
rú guǒ nǐ néng tīng dào xīn suì de shēng yīn
chén mò de shǒu hù zhù nǐ chén mò de děng qí jì
chén mò de ràng zì jǐ xiàng shì kōng qì

dà jiā dōu chī zhù liáo zhù xiào zhù jīn wǎn duō kāi xīn
zuì jiǎo luò lǐ de wǒ xiào dé duō hé qún
pán dǐ de yáng cōng xiàng wǒ yǒng yuǎn shì diào wèi pǐn
tōu tōu de kàn zhù nǐ tōu tōu de yǐn zàng zhù zì jǐ

rú guǒ nǐ yuàn yì yī céng yī céng
yī céng de bāo kāi wǒ de xīn
nǐ huì fā xiàn nǐ huì yà yì
nǐ shì wǒ zuì yā yì zuì shēn chǔ de mì mì

rú guǒ nǐ yuàn yì yī céng yī céng
yī céng de bāo kāi wǒ de xīn
nǐ huì bí suān nǐ huì liú lèi
zhǐ yào nǐ néng tīng dào wǒ kàn dào wǒ de quán xīn quán yì

tīng nǐ shuì nǐ hé nǐ de tā mén ài mèi de kōng qì
wǒ hé wǒ de jué wàng zhuāng dé hěn fēng qù
wǒ jiù xiàng yī kē yáng cōng yǒng yuǎn shì pèi jiǎo xì
duō xī wàng néng yǔ nǐ yǒu yī miǎo zhuān shǔ de jù qíng

rú guǒ nǐ yuàn yì yī céng yī céng
yī céng de bāo kāi wǒ de xīn
nǐ huì fā xiàn nǐ huì yà yì
nǐ shì wǒ zuì yā yì zuì shēn chǔ de mì mì

rú guǒ nǐ yuàn yì yī céng yī céng
yī céng de bāo kāi wǒ de xīn
nǐ huì bí suān nǐ huì liú lèi
zhǐ yào nǐ néng tīng dào wǒ kàn dào wǒ de quán xīn quán yì

rú guǒ nǐ yuàn yì yī céng yī céng
yī céng de bāo kāi wǒ de xīn
nǐ huì fā xiàn nǐ huì yà yì
nǐ shì wǒ zuì yā yì zuì shēn chǔ de mì mì

rú guǒ nǐ yuàn yì yī céng yī céng
yī céng de bāo kāi wǒ de xīn
nǐ huì bí suān nǐ huì liú lèi
zhǐ yào nǐ néng tīng dào wǒ kàn dào wǒ de quán xīn quán yì
nǐ huì bí suān nǐ huì liú lèi
zhǐ yào nǐ néng tīng dào wǒ kàn dào wǒ de quán xīn quán yì

English Translation Lyrics

If only you would give me a second glance
If only you could hear the shattering of my heart
Silently, I watch over you
Silently, I wait for a miracle
Silently letting myself be, just like the air 

Everybody is having a good time here tonight
In the corner, I'm laughing along with the crowd 
I am like the leftover onions at the bottom of the plate, 
just the seasoning
Secretly, I sneak a glance at you
Secretly, I hide myself away

If you are willing to, 
peel open my heart, 
layer by layer by layer
You will discover, you will be surprised
You are my deepest and most suppressed secret

If you are willing to,
peel open my heart,
layer by layer by layer,
Your nose will run, your tears will flow
If you could only hear, and see my wholeheartedness 

Hearing you speak of you and her, the atmosphere shifts
Me and my hopelessness, we seem very amused
I am just like an onion, forever playing the supporting character
How I wish I had a second with you, to make our own story

Read more: http://www.hotsexybeauty.club/2012/08/della-ding-yang-cong-lyrics.html#ixzz3xOJ11Z9k

I'm 22 years old!

It has been a long time that I haven't written anything new on this blog of mine. Don't if it was because I'm busy or I just don't feel like writing or because of the lousy internet connection that I have. There's so much change this few months or maybe I can say year as we just started our 2016 few days ago and more than that I just had my birthday yesterday. Yeah, I'm 22 years old now... I don't how to comment this. It doesn't feel anything I just know that fact that I have move on to new age, an old age. Haha and that's it. But to be sure I'm now older and mature?

Oh yeah, I've started my year 3 few months back, it started quite bad but I don't know in what way it will bring me forwards. I just hope the best for myself and my friend. After completed the traumatic O&G posting and lovely but hanging Medicine posting, now, currently, I'm was in Paediatric posting. Yes. Paediatric posting. Stillat early phase so I couldn't comment much on it. I just start my first week though. But, it gives me chills when I have to communicate with all those small, small kids. All this while, I though that I'm quite good with the child because usually I got positive and cheerful response from the but when I first start this posting, I was shocked. The first day, I made child cried. Yes. Me, I was dumbfounded. I don't eve do anything, not even touching them. I just smiled and they cried. Goddddddddd! Felt stressed out when I thought of it back. Grrr!!!.Why? My nephews loves me. Love their Ummi, and even before this the child I communicate with likes me. Was it because, I'm wearing a white coats or because I don't bring toys like my other posting mates? It gives me a freak because previous rotation said that, " You shouldn't make a child cry or else fail lah".*in Dr. Chai's voice. Haha, because I miss my medicine posting so much. So, back to the story. Then what it makes me, I made a child cried on my first day, my first and 7th attempt on that day. Argghhhh.... child are really hard to deal with. Real hard. I'm a little bit phobia right now. I even afraid to approach parents to do the history taking. Duhh. So, my first week just ends without any gain. Tomorrow, new week will be started. I MUST do the history taking, no matter how scared I'm... T.T

What else huh? I sure have lot to say but it cannot be retrieved right now. Oh! Did I tell you that I already move to Sibu and was allocated to confined room, with bad air circulation and without sunlight exposure, Total darkness. Seriously, but I'll have to adapt it for these 6 months onward. I should stop now, my roommates come back already. Haha.

End of traumatic O&G posting. This is Joyah with Dr. Soe

We had flood on our last day of Medicine posting exam. So, this special picture of Dr. Lai rolling his pants up.
I miss Medicine posting and still upset not able to snap pic with my mentor Dr. Myint Aung because of the flood.

Health Research in Paon Gahat

Kali ini, untuk ketiga kalinya melibatkan diri dalam program sukarelawan aka volunteerism :)

25 May 2014, kampung yang menjadi pilihan kali ini adalah Kampung Paon Gahat.

Terletak di Sarawak, Malaysia, its geographical coordinates are 0° 57' 0" North, 110° 39' 0" East

Perjalanan 1 jam 45 minit masih lagi memaparkan suasana kehijauan yang didambakan mata kecil ini dengan harapan suasana begini  akan kekal lagi untuk bertahun akan datang. Apa yang menjadikan Sarawak menarik pada pandangan aku adalah kehijauannya yang masih bertumbuh subur, tak macam suasana di semenanjung yang rakus ditelan kemodenan dan pembangunan. Tumbuhan yang tinggal di Semenanjung kebanyakkannya sekadar tumbuhan untuk tujuan kecantikan landskap. Tak macam apa yang ditemui di Sarawak . Tumbuhan liar yang bertumbuh segar, mungkin bagi sesetengah orang semak tapi apa yang aku lihat adalah keindahan alam dan kebebasan yakni sukar difahami ramai lah pendapat aku ni.

Greenery tangan non stop tangkap gambar

 Health Research kali ini adalah sambungan Health Research pada lawatan kedua di Kampung Entanggor yang ingin mengkaji perkaitan antara genetik dengan penyakit hypercholesterolemia atau penyakit kolesterol tinggi dalam dalam darah dengan dua pilihan genetik utama iaitu etnik Iban dan Bidayuh di Sarawak. Kalau sesi research yang lepas, screening dijalankan untuk etnik Iban di rumah panjang Kg. Entanggor kali ini, kami menjalankan screening untuk etnik Bidayuh di Kampung Paon Gahat.

Luar ruai

Mungkin kali ini, peluang untuk aku melihat dan memahami budaya kaum Bidayuh agak terhad sebab masa yang diambil untuk screening ini cuma beberapa jam sahaja  jadi tak banyak yang boleh diperkatakan. Lagipun hanya sempat berjalan disekitar ruai rumah  Bidayuh  yang diperbuat daripada buluh kalau dari segi architecture-nya berbezalah dengan apa yang aku nampak dengan rumah etnik Iban hari tu. Bila ditanyakan pada penduduk kampung, tempat kami jalankan sesi screening tersebut adalah rumah tradisional kaum Bidayuh yang digunakan dulu sebagai tempat tinggal mereka tapi tak digunakan lagi sekarang kecuali ketika majlis-majlis besar seperti perayaan Gawai yang akan tiba seminggu lagi ataupun majlis perkahwinan.  Sekarang penduduk tinggal dirumah moden ataupun rumah persendirian.

Penduduk dah start tunggu giliran sementara kitaorang set up

Pengalaman atau pengajaran yang aku belajar hari ini adalah perlu belajar bahasa Bidayuh juga lepas ni sebab kebanyakan mak cik dan pak cik atau lebih proper atuk dan nenek yang berusia 60 an tak fasih berbahasa Melayu even Melayu Sarawak. Nasib baiklah ada mak cik dan pak cik yang baik tolong jadi translator tak berbayar. Kalau tak tak tahu nak faham macam mana. Kalau tak kesian atuk dan nenek tu yang memang semangat bercerita dan bertanya tapi malangnya tak difahami diri ini. Haha. Maafkan saya atuk nenek. Lepas ini, saya pergi ambil kelas Bahasa Bidayuh, okay? :)

Other than that, kena juga baca sikit pasal bacaan yang selalu diambil doktor-doktor berpengalaman ni, macam tadi  ada sorang mak cik tanya. " Adik mak cik punya cholesterol kenapa kejap naik, kejap turun" lepas tu tunjuk bacaan  Cholesterol Level and Triglycerides. Tergamam sekejap. Mak cik tanya lagi, apa beza Triglycerides dengan Cholesterol Level sebab reading dia macam vice versa kalau satu naik, satu lagi turun. Lagi sekali sesi terdiam. Tengok range level kat report book mak cik tu. Okay yang ni out off range, yang ni within normal range. Tu saja yang mampu dianalisis. Ampun mak cik, kamek nang sik tauk. Tanyak doktor kat sitok nanti mak cik sambil tunjuk kaunter doktor. Haha. Speechless dalam hidup ni.

Ada juga yang  tanya tips macam mana nak naik kan blood pressure sebab blood pressure dia rendah. Ini lagi satu soaan yang meragukan minda dan jiwa raga sebagai seorang first year medical student, sesungguhnya diri ini sangat tak berilmu lagi. Tak pernah terfikir cara nak naikkan darah supaya within normal range sedangkan diri sendiri pun low blood presssure. Allahu…

*laughs

I have to learn how to take manual blood pressure lah. Lepas ni, kena minta ayah buy me my own stethoscope and sphygmomanometer untuk berlatih. Haha… Ayah jadi model nanti. Tapi ada ke jual sphygmomanometer  tu?

Dari segi pesanan pula, yang muda-muda lagi tu jagalah tubuh badan anda. Haha. Jangan ingat sebab badan muda lagi tubuh badan pun sihat. Maca tadi, ada je jumpa yang baru 19 belas tahun tapi blood pressure tinggi. Pun satu hal. Muda muda jagalah diri adik-adik, kawan-kawan sekalian. Banyak pulak pesanan penaja blood pressure ni, dah kata jaga bahagian BP check. Macam haritu, ada juga kaunter lain yang ambik body mass index, cholesterol check, blood glucose check dan kaunter untuk tujuan kajian ambil darah untuk eligible patient. :)

Volunteer team for today.
From right : Amira Fahmi; Siti Raifah; Me and Azirah y'all

Rasanya sampai sini jelah pengalaman yang dapat diceritakan untuk this visit. Dan tak pernah lupa nak menganjurkan adik or anyone untuk terlibat dalam aktiviti volunteerism. Tak rugi, banyak yang kita boleh dapat. Pengalaman, dapat kawan baru, dapat tengok tempat orang. Tak rugi kalau pun penat, penat itu bermakna. :) tapi jangan lupa study juga. Kena study awal ni, sebab next research kat Bau, Sarawak tapi time tu dah nak dekat EOB terakhir untuk year 1, jadi untuk libatkan diri kena prepare awal dan pergi next visit. Kalau ayah bagilah. Haha :)

Groupie with Dr. Helmy

Syeikha Z.

25th May 2014

Kampung Paon Gahat, Serian.

Sum up!