DAY 49:I'm static

It's getting hard and it's hard to tell. What I felt right now. Helpless. I can't do anything about myself. Felt so low and lost. I don't know which path should I take. What should I do? I can feel the burden was hanging around me all day. I want to make a change but it's hard. I feel like something tied me up. Stop me from doing anything. Even the desire that was burning inside, can't fight it. I wanted to- fight 'em back, still I can't. I'm becoming so helpless. Few trials doesn't result anything still I'm in the same place. Not moving. I can see everything around me evolving-moving leaving me behind. I tried to make a step forward. One or two might be enough for me but I can't. I can feel that when I tried to take the step, my foot can't even move-like it was glued tightly. I'm still here, no change- the same and can't even make a tiny change of myself right now. Static .

# I shall stop myself from thinking when I'm gonna start, and start re-thinking how I'm gonna start it back and      
focus on the plan that I'm going to renew. I really need a fresh new plan.