DAY 81: The Second Trial.

Yeah, the title explain part of it. Today I'm facing my second trial. Second time MUET, speaking test. The test that was great enough to make me shiver and go to the toilet more than once. Totally make blood rise, my heart beats uncontrollably and terrific enough to make me stammer and stutter-like seriously. I don't know why and why... This is my second trial though, I already had the experience before. I know the flow. I know what the question is all about but ...*triple  dot for that.

Or... maybe because it is my second trial? I've face it before and maybe because I know what the situation that I'll face make me expect perfection from me. And absolutely perfection really hunt me, then embed me with those freaking fear feeling that make feel so anxious. Yeah... maybe...? and I don't really understand why I can speak better in daily conversation but have those weird time during my speaking test. It's so annoying!

For this time, I've got new team mates* considered as. haha. Haqim and two guys from Uitm Kota Samarahan, who I really don't bother to know their name.lol. Considered okay, maybe? yes. I speak out loud. I pointed out my point but... I don't know if it's appeared to be okay to the examiner. I hope it'll be okay. Out title was 'the factor that make a  perfect Malaysian' and we're given four point as usual (1) fit Malaysian,(2) fearless Malaysian,(3) visionary Malaysian and last  (4) a patriotic Malaysian. As candidate C, I'm presenting the 'visionary' part and seriously I already forget most of the thing that I present.LOL- Short term memory. But what I know my point is the best factor that make up a perfect Malaysian. Because a person with vision knows what they can possibly plan for the future and this future planning was a good component to have a perfect future Malaysia. Don't you think the same thing with me? Don't you. But honestly I tell you here that three of those guy, reject my point ended up choosing a fit Malaysian as a perfect Malaysian. Fine. Majority speaks louder than minority. Therefore, we ended up our task B discussion, believing that 'a fit Malaysian' make up a perfect Malaysian. *but trust me up till now I still stick to the 'visionary Malaysian'. But my opinion was nothing.Daaa... the only,young lady had to accept the guys opinion. Haha.

 I can't believe this. I'm actually updating my post in CAIS aka Library. It was so not privacy. But I'm doing it. Keyboard-OFF. My IT class was actually starting now. LOL.

#Pray I can get the perfect band that I'd been desired till I was diligent and brave enough to have my second trial.