Block 2 end

Teringat dulu-dulu waktu mula-mula nak masuk med school
Punya hati riang cari maklumat
Cari apa yang akan dibelajar kat UNIMAS ni ah.
Block system semua aku kaji.
Tengok tajuk satu-satu block.
Pastu tertanya tanya,  block ni pasal apa, banyak tak nak kena belajar, susah tak.
Semua soalan lipatan lipatan detail aku tanya.

Then, masuk lah. Block 1 Foundation, genetik basic anatomy ape tah lagi dah lupa
Sekarang baru habis EOB 2 untuk block Man in the Environment. Medical Entomology, Parasitology, Microbiology, Virology and Pharmacology.
Serius dah mula rasa berat dengan nama-nama unik bacteria, parasite, fungi, virus. mahu tak meraung aku nak hafalnya.
Tapi today habis sesi menghafal dah tuang dah pun kat exam sheet
just tunggu result je lah
aku tak peduli dah apa yang jadi yang pasti exam over haha
and balik
Happy holiday :D

One doesn't simply, fits well in your life

At some point, no matter how you try you will never ever got along with some kind of people.
They are just not your 'that kind' of people.
They are simply don't.
The best way is to put yourself far far far away from this kind of person.
Because they are just too awful for your life.
Just be yourself and be great just like you are before.
Make people of 'your kind' that you already got feel precious and stop getting along with people that doesn't fits well in your life. Just to say, "Goodbye".

Pendapat aku

Dah lama tak berceloteh meluahkan perasaan.
Berkongsi rasa pada yang ingin membaca.

" Belief is like a ship. Ship won't sink until water goes in. So does our beliefs"

Just a recent so called life event of me. Bila kita memberi pendapat and that person scattered. Feeling hopeless and menganggap yang aku merendah-rendahkan dia. That's the thing. Kenapa harus macam tu. Kenapa cepat hancur kerana satu dua perkataan daripada orang lain. Kenapa cepat melatah.

Sayang,
It's your life. Your LIFE. Nyawa kau dalam badan kau. Badan kau bergerak sebab diri kau sendiri yang nak. Apa yang kau fikir semuanya diri kau sendiri yang pilih. Bukan aku, bukan sesiapa.

Jadi, kenapa harus putus asa, rasa rendah diri sedangkan kau boleh pilih untuk ambil peduli atau pun tak sesuatu perkara tu. Kenapa nak biarkan pandangan orang lain menghantui hidup kau. Kenapa nak biarkann pandangan orang lain meresap dalam minda kau dan karam kan kau. Kau boleh buat pilihan sendiri. aku boleh fikir sendiri apa yang kau nak dalam hidup ini. Pandangan orang lain, pemikiran orang lain itu semua ditangga kedua atau mungkin bawah lagi. Kau. Kau yang pertama, Yang utama dalam hidup kau. Kau yang pilih sendiri.

Kedua, jadi manusia jangan emosi. Kita perlu juga dengar pendapat orang lain but still kita yang pilih jugak akhirnya nanti apa yang kita buat. Walaubagaimanapun, cuba dengar juga. Dengar dan cuba teliti bandingkan bukannya terus melenting emosi. Kau salah. Aku betul. Itu bukan caranya. Tak semestinya kau sentiasa betul.

Ketiga, jangan ego. Jangan ego. Jangan ego. Keegoan kau sebenarnya kelemahan kau, sebab kau sentiasa nak diatas, Kau sentiasa nak menan, Kau sentiasa rasa orang patut dengar cakap kau. Sampai kau telepas pandang. Kau ada buat silap. Kau tak nampak. Orang lain nampak. Bila dia bangkitkan, kau pertikaikan. Keegoan kau buat kau jadi buta. Buta untuk melihat diri kau sendiri.

#Random. Nasihat aku untuk aku, dan untuk kau.

Inspiring. A Better Fathers for our Daughters. Find them.

Muhammad Ali's advice to his daughters...Powerful!

An incident transpired when Muhammad Ali’s daughters arrived at his home wearing clothes that were quite revealing.

Here is the story as told by one of his daughters:

“When we finally arrived, the chauffeur escorted my younger sister, Laila, and me up to my father’s suite. As usual, he was hiding behind the door waiting to scare us. We exchanged many hugs and kisses as we could possibly give in one day.

My father took a good look at us. Then he sat me down on his lap and said something that I will never forget. He looked me straight in the eyes and said, “Hana, everything that God made valuable in the world is covered and hard to get to.

Where do you find diamonds? Deep down in the ground, covered and protected.

Where do you find pearls? Deep down at the bottom of the ocean, covered up and protected in a beautiful shell.

Where do you find gold? Way down in the mine, covered over with layers and layers of rock. You've got to work hard to get to them.”

He looked at me with serious eyes. “Your body is sacred. You’re far more precious than diamonds and pearls, and you should be covered too.”

From the book: More Than A Hero: Muhammad Ali's Life Lessons Through His Daughter's Eyes.

Never Surrender :D

"Never Surrender"

Just a little more time
Is all we're asking for
'Cause just a little more time
Could open closing doors
Just a little uncertainty
Can bring you down

And nobody wants to know you now
And nobody wants to show you how

So if you're lost and on your own
You can never surrender
And if your path won't lead you home
You can never surrender

And when the night is cold and dark
You can see, you can see light
Cause no one can take away your right
To fight and to never surrender

With a little perseverance
You can get things done
Without the blind adherence
That has conquered some

And nobody wants to know you now
And nobody wants to show you how

So if you're lost and on your own
You can never surrender
And if your path won't lead you home
You can never surrender

And when the night is cold and dark
You can see, you can see light
'Cause no one can take away your right
To fight and to never surrender
To never surrender

And when the night is cold and dark
You can see, you can see light
No one can take away your right
To fight and to never surrender
To never surrender

Oh, time is all we're asking for
To never surrender
Oh, oh, you can never surrender

Time is all you're asking for
Stand your ground, never surrender
Oh, oh, oh, oh, I said
You never surrender, oh

- COREY HART

Dear friends, we practically moving on in new different path now. Tahu-tahu tup tup, korang dah nak final exam dah. Cepat masa bergerak. Tak sedar pun dan sebenarnya tak tahu pun yang sebenarnya satu sem korang equal to 3 months something. Ingatkan still sama macam zaman asasi dulu. What ever you are doing now, all the best for all of you. Dapat catch up ke tak itu belakang kira. Sekarang ini pun masih awal lagi. Kita mungkin boleh jatuh tersungkur tapi kita masih buleh berdiri. So never surrender. Aku pun ala-ala malas dan rasa macam sesak je sekarang ni pastu mulalah rindu rindan korang semua. Nak lepak dengan korang gelak-gelak like we use to. At some point, boleh pulak rasa menyesal tu datang pastu rasa nak baling-baling semua study notes sebab dah rasa lelah tambah lagi bila JPA buat penganiayaan kat Medic student. Tsk. Tsk. Pastu, fikir balik. This is what I decide to be, then face it lah kan? Nak sangat jadi DRSyeikhaZ yang poyo tu. Padan muka aku kan? bila duduk-duduk dengar lagu then tiba-tiba aku dengar lagu ni. Faham. Faham balik. Yeah, never surrender Syeikha never. Dan aku nak jugak korang macam tu. Terutamanya, budak yang tengah rindu aku semalam tu (Ehem), tapi tak habis cakap sebab kredit aku habis. Haha. Dan kini, lagu menggantikan punca semangat aku. Menggantikan lagu ' The Climb' yang Miley twerking dah rosakkan aura dia tu. Haha. 

To Nurul Syakirah, aku nak kau faham lagu ni juga. Aku nak fahamkan tahap kesusahan course kau, aku tak mampu. So, anggap je lah course kita sama tahap hardness dia. Walau macam mana susah pun, jangan lelah. Usaha and never surrender. Allah kan ada. Lain kali kalau ada masa aku bagi ceramah kat hang eh. Time tu for sure kredit banyak punya. haha

To Maryanne Minn, mak cik. Nah sumber semangat aku yang seterusnya. Kau pun usaha dan jangan putus asa jugak Let's all of us berjaya together. Kau boleh sedut semangat melalui blog aku jelah. Nanti bila aku dah pindah barat balik. Jangan lupa datang bilik aku hoiii. Haha

To Sal and Tiah, the same thing. Never surrender and I'm sure korang boleh cope the situation now, especially Sal asyik twittering je doktor sekor ni. Pergi hafal anatoy you tu lah.Haha.

Tiah, untuk kekasih aku ni, fuh semangat aku terbangkan. I think you getting better now? Haha 

ILY kawan-kawan <3

Doakan aku. Aku pun ade End of Block Exam(EOB) 2 minggu lagi :)

Aku nak A oi! Pastikan doa korang tu specific.

" Ya Allah, berikan Syeikha Zulaikha 'A' dalam EOB 2 dia dan jadikan dia doktor yang baik. Amin"

Dengan semangat yang menjulang,

DRSyeikhaZ

319 C, Kolej Kasturi.

#DearAugust

Post ini ditulis untuk kau yang dilahirkan pada 25 Ogos 1994, yang dipercayai orang Perak dan pernah muncul dalam masa lepas aku.

Hari ini aku merasakan sudah tiba untuk aku meluahkan walaupun bukan secara terus pada kau. Mungkin kau sampai bila-bila pun takkan tahu dan ambil peduli tapi at least aku mencuba. Dan mungkin juga kau secara tak sengaja menjumpai post ini yang aku pasti mungkin atas bantuan takdir Illahi. Sama ada kau tahu atau tidak akhirny , aku tak peduli tapi yang pasti kini aku ingin untuk mewujudkan jalan untuk kau temui. Perkara  tahu atau ta tahu itu kita letak tepi dulu.

Entah mengapa hari ini aku disedarkan oleh kata-kata seseorang, yang pernah aku baca atau dengar. Aku sendiri tak pasti dari mana aku dapat kata-kata ini. Tapi yang pasti kata-kata itulah yang membuatkan aku tergerak untuk menyatakannya hari ini.

" Aku tak nak menyesal suatu hari nanti. Bila aku tengok hidup dia, tengok hidup aku. Lepas tu berfikir, kalau dia tahu apa rasa aku. Apa pengakhiran kita orang?"

That's it. Penyesalan atau rasa ingin tahu. Aku pun tak tahu nak kategorikan kata-kata ini dalam bahagian yang mana. Yang aku tahu kata-kata orang ini membuatkan aku rasa. Baik aku luah. What the outcome that might come after doesn't important. Kecewa atau bahagia. Peduli apa. Kecewa? Terima dah orang tak suka nak buat macam mana. Bahagia? Alhamdullilah. At least, we had that definite answer rather than like this hoping and questioning, ' who am I to him?'. Lepas itu, hidup menunggu that satu hari, dia tiba-tiba dapat telepathy said, " This one girl that you met in your past actually love you till now and she will wait for you to come to her and said I love you too". Lepas itu, happy ending macam cerita fairy tales. Like that. But this is real life,  nobody would ever care or realize until you tell them clearly. That's sucks but this is the reality.

So, today. I would like to tell you who was born on 25th August 1994, that I once love you and till today
 ( 08th December 2013), I still do and InsyaAllah I will do till forever. I know was in big denial 2 years ago but I'm sorry. I just need time to think and realize. And know I realize. People may say that I'm too late but I don't even care as long as I got that chance and don't feel the burden. You don't need to accept me. You got the choice and I'm quite understanding too. LOL. haha. Yeah, people do expect but not all expectation hit the jackpot, right? So, just chill man. Thank you for reading and realizing that, this is for you.

At some point, people might say that 'Kalau dah jodoh takkan ke mana', so don't worry. So, actually at some point, I'm testing it. That's why there is no such thing as name. No such thing as I tagged he inside this post or telling him that I wrote this for him. He has no idea the existence of this post. What I'm trying to do now is to let the fate find it's way.  At least, I express myself  and now I put my belief in takdir Allah :)

You:)

Don't ask me how and why.

To be truth, I tried to but I just can't . I can't.

I don't wanna be like this. Because I don't want end up, regretting it. So I write this