DAY 35:Comment rejected somehow.

Pernah tak you met someone that really really annoy you.

Macam dia kutuk you, or maybe menjatuhkan semangat you.

For instance

"Eh, Syeikha you tak sesuailah jadi ....bla...bla..."

"Eh, Syeikha you pasti ke yang you akan capai yang you nak. You bukannya hebat pun kan."

"Syeikha, your voice buatkan you tak sesuailah untuk jadi doktor. Mati nanti pesakit tu" =,='

Aduhai..

macam-macamlah manusia ni, voice pun  can become an issue. Tak pernah pula aku dengar pesakit mati disebabkan voice doktor tu. Sungguhlah tak boleh diterima pakai idea si tukang karut ini.

You know what I don't mind pun if you nak tegur me or whatever it is. I don't mind but please lah berfikiran yang "normal" sikit tak perlulah nak jadi luar biasa sangat pendapat you tu. Mengkelamkan kepala otak aku je berfikir why on earth did you give that comment. Sangat tak masuk akallah dear. 

I don't know atas tujuan apa you did say that but seriously 'tak masuk akal', tak 'in' langsunglah your point of view,sayang oi!.

Haha.

I really don't know what are the thing that you have in your mind fella. Tak tahu langsung what's the purpose of saying that to me. Nak kata you jealous I got nothing untuk buat you jealous dengan I. Nothing. Biasa-biasa je Syeikha Zulaikha ni. Nak kata you nak bagi nasihat....Well, that's kinda weird one, lah pulak..

Anythinglah uolls, yang penting I know what I want right now, I've got my short and long term plan. Dapat tak dapat. Sesuai tak sesuai itu belakang kira. All I know I'm gonna work for it. I'm gonna smack it!

Rezeki kita siapa yang tahu. My life principle senang je. Just go on and work it out. The result? Let it be a question mark!Jyeah!Hahah!

Wise comment, accepted. Unwise comment, lalallalala~ 

#Yang pasti now I'm stuck doing maths tutorial. Susah nau soalan Mr.Alif ni.Haha. XD

DAY 23:I'm confident enough! YOU?

Just now have a short thought.

Suddenly I sorted out, all this while I have tough confidence for myself.*kembang. kembang

Quite perasanlah. Jarang sangat myself hid myself behind for any task.

Mesti jugak nak mempamerkan lubang hidung yang sedia cantik ni ke hadapan

Quite a long time jugak. Since primary school lagi rasanya.

Ke depan. Becoming presenter. Debater. Pelakon. Penyair jalanan pun pernah.

Nak kata ada hikmah ke tak ah? With this confidence??

If I look it from good sight, memang berhikmah sangatlah confidence level yang tinggi.

At least awak takdelah terkedek-kedek, passing the task to others for anything. 

Because you have the confidence, umpama Superman yang kacak anda kehadapan menyelamatkan kawan-kawan yang serba ketakutan.haha XD *takde niat nak bajet.

But from the other sight...

Err...Err...Err..

Macam mana ek nak cakap. Oleh kerana anda punya confidence level tinggi adalah makhluk Tuhan yang paling seksi yang cuba mengambil kesempatan.#no specific person.It's a warn.Tak payah nak perasan :P lol

Kadang tu rasa nak hampuk pun ada dengan manusia ni.

Selalu terkena macam ni.

"Alah Syeikha, kau kan berani pergilah sound dia.."

"Syeikha, kaulah present.Kau kan berani"

"Syeikha , bla...blaa.bla..."

Sekali dua bolehlah ambo melayan. Empat lima - dua puluh kali. Mahu aku bagi penampar

Awal-awal bolehlah terima kalau "kanak-kanak" dalam bantuan ini minta tolong.

Adalah 'feel' sikit nak jadi superhero.

yang seterusnya terus buat aku rasa ,

"korang tak ada mulut ke nak buat sendiri?"#sila terasa kalau nak sangat terasa.hahaXD

Kadang-kadang tu permintaan yang diornag suruh aku voice out kan sangatlah melampau,

Ada ke suruh sound cikgu?

Nak sound sound sendirilah, aku pula yang kena. Aku tak ada masalah dengan cikgu. Apasal pula aku yang kena sound kan? Sungguh tak memasal diorang ni. =,='

Sebenarnya, aku tak adalah kisah sangat kalau korang nak suruh aku jadi tukang voice out korang except for "sound" cikgu tu lah. Itu gua ambil kisah.

Best je sebenanya jadi presenter and so on. Best sangat! Like seriously.!!

Tapi satu je..

Korang tak jealous ke? Muak ke?*Yelaa, asyik aku je.

No. I mean. Selama ni aku je yang menunjukkan lubang hidung kat depan, korang tak nak try ke?

Rasa apa yang aku rasa.

"Alaa, aku bukan tak nak Syeikha. Masalahnya, aku takut. Aku asal ke depan je. Gabra semacam."
"Rasa nak terkencing pun ada"*hiperbola -,-

Korang takut? Gabra?
Seriously cakap, dulu aku pun macam tu.

Takut juga.

But what I did?

Fight it!

Lawan dengan ketakutan sendiri.Lawan habis-habisan.

Berkesan.

Prove?

Tak prove. Aku jamin sendiri. Aku prove dia.Haha XD

"Kau cakap lawan, tapi lawan tu macam mana?"

Ah.Sudah...

Haha.

*tunggu my next post.okay? cluck:6

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DAY 20: The TOUGH<-____->Me |:

Now,

being alone in room without my roommates or "zebra crossing" neighbor, sungguh-sungguhlah sunyi.

Budak dua orang ni pun satu. Nak tinggalkan aku sekali dua-dua terus. At least bergilir-gilirlah.

One can't wait to go back home for Christmas, the other one over-spirited go for Muhayyam.

maka tinggallah beta keseorangan mengenang nasib sendiri.#cough

But somehow there's a benefit behind all these.

At least they give me some space to think, to motivate myself.

Alaaaa..lebih kurang sesi tazkirah kepada diri sendirilah.Kalau budak dua ketul ni ada, tak ada maknanya nak tazkirah-tazkirah, tarzan-tarzaniah adalah.LOL

...

So, while being alone right now, I start to think my past, my present and my future.

Recalling back what I've done all these days. Is it the right thing or absolutely wrong. 

Recalling and scanning my past and my present, realizing I've done a lot lot of mistakes without perceiving it. Make stupid things without long thought. Most of the decision I made was based on what I think might be cool, fun leaving the thought on what's the consequences. Senang cerita keputusan buta. Buta pada keseronakan dan kepuasan perasaan manusia. So, that's the virus yang dapat dikesan dalam proses scanning. There's a lot more yang dijumpai but takkanlah I nak tulis semua kat sini nanti jadi karangan SPM pulak kan?

Not just to stop there,

I'm thinking but my future too. Gerangan apakah si Syeikha ini akan jadi pada masa hadapan. Trying to thing about that. Have the thought, 'macam mana hidup sebagai fully grown up adult?'. Susah ke senang. How it would be? Macam mana nanti I nak uruskan my own life. Uruskan duit sendiri, makan minum sendiri, rumah sendiri, kereta... you know that thought  that come when you see an adult. Semua difikirkan. How is my life when I live alone.? * Boleh ke I hidup seorang. Yelah, right now tak rasa seoang sangat because of suasana kolej tu kan walaupun dah jauh daipada family. Yang cuba dibayangkan nanti the time when I dah fully keluar dari family house ada my bungalow sendiri *tak kongsi-kongsi lagi dengan ayah. Macam mana keadaan tu nanti.?

Mesti lonelykan? Creepy pun ada juga. Yelah, dah kata duduk seorang. Takde geng tukang buat bising,yang ada bunyi sengkerik je. Mesti masa tu bulu roma tegak mengalahkan KLCC. sesi rewinding cerita hantu yang pernah dilihat,didengar semua keluar- non-stop.

Pergh~! tak dapat eden bayangkan. 

Dah teragak-agak ni. Dah besar nanti nak duduk sorang ke tak? Nak ke tak? #bajet diri masih kecil lagi je...

But when we try to think it deeply.Sampai bila nak duduk bawah ketiak wangi ayah and ibu, sampai bila nak bergayut kat diorang kan? 

Kalau fikirkan takut tu memang takut, tapi kalau nak diikutkan takut kita tu je sampai bila tak ke mana.

Nak ke sana. "eeeiiii.takutlah",  pakej sekali dengan muka nak makan penampar.

Nak ke situ. "Alaaa, tak beranilah"

Alamatnya, membatulah kat situ. Kan?

Better make a move kan. Buanglah rasa takut takut tu semua Buat semak je.

Keluar dari kepompong tu.

tak perlu takut nak menghadapi cabaran future.

Erase semua mentality expecting everything will be as comfortable as what our mum an dad prepare for us.

That fear to your future was actually because of this mentality.

Come on fella,

before parent give you what you have now,diorang susah payah dulu kot.

Takkan kita pula nak terus senang je. Tak advanterouslah macam tu kan.

So, now as time goes on, build toughness in yourself. Kuatkan diri!

Prepare for future :D

The TOUGHMe. Cluck! :6

DAY 19:Please just understand.

Problem? Always there.
One problem yang till now stay with me::
Tak tahu macam mana nak berterus-terang bout what what I feel. Sometimes can you almost crazy tau. Yelah. Bayangkan eh, for example that particular time you amat amatlah tak berpuas hati kat someone tu but somehow you don't know how to express it.Nak try secara brutal punya expression takut berlaku peperangan dunia kelapan, nak tell them nicely takut mereka mereka itu memperkotak-katikkan kita. In the end you stay in the middle. Terapung- apung.#kepak-kepak





So, that's what happening to me. Paling senang cerita lately nih. Kinda tak berpuas hati dengan someone yang truly tidak mengamalkan sikap kerjasama seperti yang diwar warkan oleh Wonderpet. I always hope that us can work together mengalahkan aur dengan tebing lah. Demi menjaga keamanan setempat kami bersama, but somehow what i got is far far far away from what am I expecting. Sedih sangat :((
tapi tak tahu macam mana nak expresskan kat dia. Karang face to face takut I hurt feeling dia. Nak tahan je macam tak adil pula dunia ni kan. Keadilan itu perlu ye..Yang berat sama dipikul, yang ringan sama dijinjing* cewah!boleh lawan karam singh walia tak??!_double-jerk :D

Oleh kerana,pihak saya sangat kurang bijaksana dalam hal ehwal meluahkan perasaan, jadi diharapkan pihak tuan dan puan untuk faham-faham sendiri. Sebelum hati saya ini meletup disebabkan bebanan menyimpan perasaaan terlalu banyak pihak saya memohon agar pihak tuan dan puan memberikan kerjasama yang sewajarnya. Kerjasama pihak tuan  dan puan didahului dengan ucapan terima kasih.

#Dunia belum kiamat, selagi itu kita masih boleh bertaubat:DDD

DAY 12:Hello, SIR CADAVER:)

Wooooo....
that's creepy.
Hello sir cadaver?
Are you getting mad?I know life is getting harder Syeikha but please make up your mind...

LOLXD
well peeps.
Its not that I'm getting crazy or whatsoever
Its just that today was a memorable day for me.
for the FIRST TIME in my life
I'd meet sir cadaver
FIRST TIME fella.Its my first time.
Honestly, I was too excited for this first true-to-life meeting with dead people.
What makes it becoming extra cooler is that the cadaver was preserved with formalin, chemical used to ensure the restoration of the softness and flexibility of the cadaver.
The fact that able to impress me is that all these three male cadaver was actually kept for 15 years time. That's totally impressive.15 years?! That totally a long gap of time. It must be the process  of embalming was so so great or no doubt the chemical used was really really strong enough to ensure those cadaver in good condition.Right?!
Visit to a mortuary was totally an eerie experience, but somehow it gives us a lot.
Experience and knowledge.(#experience.no doubt.knowledge kureng sikit coz takut sgt time doktor explain tu + eden terkebelakang sikit,tak nampak doktor godok mayat:(  )
I'd touch the cadavers.
You.What Syeikha?!
Well..I TOUCH THE CADAVER.
Oh Merciful Allah
totally the moment that I touch them was,
Aaaaaaa!
Sumpah takut.but for the first touch je laa.After that I'm getting better.Thank God,I have a lots lots of friend around me.Sampai bergerak tempat letak mayat tu. Semangat sangat all of us nak "meraba" mayat tu.hahha
Trust it was super cool!!

My visit to FPSK wasn't all about mayat ye kengkawan.
Actually,we do visit some other place in FPSK
like pathology and anatomy museum , and physiology lab.
but maybe we are rushing so feeling tu pun rushinglah.
what so great about pathology and anatomy museum is that, this is the place that they kept all the preserved diseased body parts and plastic model of our body.
Menarik?Yes, it is but tak sempat nak merewang here and there
Dah kena panggil to move to next station.
Upsetting,I manage to see 3 shelves of the preserved body parts je kot. The others sekilas pandang je.
Pray to Allah that I was able to further my studies here so that bolehlah saya merewang menghayati those things.:))
by the way, I was told that pathology and anatomy museum was second library for medical student.
Alangkah indahnya kalau aku jadi student medical. Nak menghadap those thing puas puas sampai muntah ler.haahaa.

In pyhsiology lab we was exposed to the study of mechanic of living organism. Sort of applying physic together with biology for the purpose of medical. The machine here was soo awesome :)
New things that I did learnt here is how to check the blood pressure using mercury sphygmomanometer.
I really wanna try it. Kenapalah the instructor tak tanya,"Did any of you wanna try.?"
For sure, I'm the one ynag akan menawarkan diri :D
but malangnya tidak ada soalan sebegitu eh:(

Mercury sphygmomanometer.
Kalau ada rezeki aku,tengok satu hari nanti aku picit picit kau.haha
Credit:www.medicalexpo.com 

So that's it. This visit gave me a lot. experience, knowledge and rasa takut nak pergi tandas seorang diri.Sekian.LOLXD

P/S: Kan best ada gambar for today's visit.Especially kat mortuary tu.Malangnya tidak dibenarkan mengambil gambar ye.Kalau bagi pun aku dengan bangganya berkata TAK NAK!:P