DAY 60:Finally...it ends.

Our war was finally end. Quite relieve. Huhhhh..* deep breath...
The question was awesome! especially our essay question. Exactly the same as the one that we did in class before this-the same! But the 'melancholy' part #just remember this word.totally forgot about it when I want to express the sadness in my essay.damn! ... is that I know the idea of that particular question but I somehow realize that the structure of my essay*the one in the exam was kind of loose. No determination. It's kind of 'beat around the bush' like I was mumbling in the essay babbling about the deforestation without a clear means. I had the point*actually it was given. but it was not fully clarified, I just explain it on the base and tadaa..! Finish.

I am expecting this reaction when my English coordinator read my essay

 That's the situation for my English paper today. The sentence arrangement was shit. I think I've lost my ability to write an article or and essay in proper manner. The whole idea was a piece of junk as I hate the way I'm explaining the things. No maturation there. It was almost like a little kid's essay. Rubbish!*at least for me. Yes, by means of word used I can get quite*quite yeah good word usage but the grammar organization.? Again.? Please flush away my essay. I totally hate it even though it was written by myself. For grammar I was quite don't really care about it # not much. but for the sentence structure?It's hell! I've really lost my ability write it in versatile way.Like the one I used*for quite sometime... to be. It had a lot of mumbling in it that makes it long - really long but zero! No facts!. Just a babbling. .. I really need to do something with it or else I'm going to die or at least score bad in my upcoming MUET test. Seriously! Make up your writing Syeikha!. Grammar, sentence organization, style of writing * make it versatile-literally! so for your upcoming MUET test you can achieve your desired band 5 or 6. Not below than that! Mind it!
The first thing that I've to do is to correct back my writing style in this blog. The way I expressed my writing in this blog was really childish and unorganized. (Peeps, did you have any difficulties in attaining the idea of my past post.?Are you?Please, comment below).

LOL. That's soooo me!The latest me.-Terrible

I think I really really have to do a change here and to be active back in my reading. Not just read those books that related to my studies, I have to read others though. Speaking. Yes! That's included too. The last time I really really speak English. I mean real English was many years back. Long lost time. Now-not now, the few years back I speak 'rojak' English as a trend and I think it looks enjoyable though.*fool. Now, I have to face the consequence, my English wasn't getting better, it was getting worst-really worst.No doubt.!

Credit

and... what else??!.....Oh! Switch 'on' my mind to catch any newest issue, general information. That may help. Miss the time I would find any article on something, keep it and read it back when I'm free. Use the issue in my essay. It really help me-a lot! and....read the 'high level magazine' not the cheeky, cheesy or what ever style magazine that would make my thinking to be immature. During my primary level I've read the 'high level thinking magazine' that really make me 'advance' from others especially in giving the opinion but ever since I'm in form 4, I've totally stop reading those 'high level thingy' and preferred the 'childish magazine' that had no critical thinking written in it just f.u.n. awww..such a lost...!It's a regret.
I REALLY NEED A CHANGE!REAL CHANGE....

*let's pod-casting! to learn their 'lingo'! So that we can have their accent in our daily pronunciation. Voila'!!!

XOXO

DAY 25: Backache=.='

huhuhuu..
sakit wooo...tahap dewa ke sembilan pun tak boleh nak express what I feel right now.
Sangatlah sakit..
I can't even stand properly.tegang semacam vertebrae aku ni.
this is the side effect of doing tell me more non stop for almost 6 hours.
Pergh. nak sue lah tell me more ni. Dahlah buat banyak macam mane pun dia punya percent bergerak mengalahkan turtle. turtle pun tak selembab si tell-me-more ni-.-'

"Excuse me Syeikha what's tell-me-more? Sampai you nak backache backache segala.."

Tell-me-more adalah alat untuk menyeksa manusia*LOLXD joke
Tell-e-more is a software whereby you can learn English from it interactively.
dan ianya amatlah membosankan walaupun secara interactive.

..kalau dah bosan tak payahlah buat..

Itulah masalahnya wahai rakyat-rakyat beta sekalian,kalau diberi pilihan nak buat ke tak nak dah lama dah beta pancung itu tell-me-more.arghhhhhh!!!
Masalahnya, this tell-me-more thingy thing is one of my English assesment!!
Obviously, it brings our carry mark.:(
Menjadi musuh hidup dan mati aku je tell-me-more ni sepanjang asasi.
dah katanya it's our carry marks, nak tak nak kena buat juga lah.
Nanti tak pasal-pasal terkantoi English.Dahlah last semester kantoi English.Kantoi English yang selama ini boleh je score.Macam ayam!
:((

Waaaa..dah tak larat nak taip lagi severe sangat backache aku ni.Nak rest before revising kejap lagi.

#92% another 8% to be finished. Esok semua clean! Wachaaa!DX

DAY 24:Tell me,why?

easy and simple.
for those yang rasanya tidak berpuas hati dengan me.
Sila terang-terangan beritahu saya
I don't mind at all *mind sikit je laa
but seriously if there's anything mushy fishy pasal aku.
Jangan takut takut nak beritahu.
takdelah I just kesian kepada mereka yang tak puas hati tu.
Kadang-kadang tu kononnya nak meluahkan rasa kepada sahabat terchenta ketidakpuasan hati dia
but somehow tetiba I muncul kat situ.terbantut terus. Kesian *seriously...
tak tau nak gelak ke nak marah time tu.
Nak gelak macam tak patut je..#tapi muka terkantoi diorang...hahaXD
Nak marah? Malas aku buat berkedut muka yang dah sedia berkedut je.Kan??

So , senang cerita bagitahu je aku.Straight to the point.Kan bagus?
Nak hidup kena berani sayang :))
XOXO. no harm.

#esok dah start kuliah balik.Malasnya:(

DAY 19:Please just understand.

Problem? Always there.
One problem yang till now stay with me::
Tak tahu macam mana nak berterus-terang bout what what I feel. Sometimes can you almost crazy tau. Yelah. Bayangkan eh, for example that particular time you amat amatlah tak berpuas hati kat someone tu but somehow you don't know how to express it.Nak try secara brutal punya expression takut berlaku peperangan dunia kelapan, nak tell them nicely takut mereka mereka itu memperkotak-katikkan kita. In the end you stay in the middle. Terapung- apung.#kepak-kepak





So, that's what happening to me. Paling senang cerita lately nih. Kinda tak berpuas hati dengan someone yang truly tidak mengamalkan sikap kerjasama seperti yang diwar warkan oleh Wonderpet. I always hope that us can work together mengalahkan aur dengan tebing lah. Demi menjaga keamanan setempat kami bersama, but somehow what i got is far far far away from what am I expecting. Sedih sangat :((
tapi tak tahu macam mana nak expresskan kat dia. Karang face to face takut I hurt feeling dia. Nak tahan je macam tak adil pula dunia ni kan. Keadilan itu perlu ye..Yang berat sama dipikul, yang ringan sama dijinjing* cewah!boleh lawan karam singh walia tak??!_double-jerk :D

Oleh kerana,pihak saya sangat kurang bijaksana dalam hal ehwal meluahkan perasaan, jadi diharapkan pihak tuan dan puan untuk faham-faham sendiri. Sebelum hati saya ini meletup disebabkan bebanan menyimpan perasaaan terlalu banyak pihak saya memohon agar pihak tuan dan puan memberikan kerjasama yang sewajarnya. Kerjasama pihak tuan  dan puan didahului dengan ucapan terima kasih.

#Dunia belum kiamat, selagi itu kita masih boleh bertaubat:DDD

DAY 17:If you're fool,don't make it worst!

Honestly, this is the post to express my dissatisfaction to them.

Betapa teruknya dia,
Betapa hambarnya dia,
Betapa membosankannya dia,
Betapa dia sukar difahami pun.
Awak tidak layak untuk menghina dia.
Tak layak untuk merendahkan maruah dia.
He's your teacher.
Orang yang menyampaikan ilmu pada awak.
Why?Why didn't you respect him.?
"Okay.Awak kata dia tak pandai mengajar."
tapi saya tengok awak yang ada rupa tak boleh nak diajar.
It maybe harsh to say you like that.
But that's absolutely you.
Why?
Orang mengajar awak bercerita kat belakang.
He was explaining at front, you're laughing behind.
then once he finish,you baru you nak bagi perhatian.
pastu you cakaplah
"Sir ajar laju sangat."
"Sir tak pandai explain"
"Sir ni...Sir tu..."
Come on.Tolonglah sedar diri sikit.

Okay fine.
Kalau you rasa dia ajar sukar nak difahami, double up your effort untuk faham apa yang diajar.
Tingkatkan fokus dalam kelas bukan susah.
Ni tak you create song that obviously humiliating him.
Mengejek seorang guru. Bukan ke namanya kurang ajar ke tu?
Dengan cara tu, did you expect yang you boleh dapat ilmu dia,hah?
I ask you.
mengejek dia dengan lagu you satu hal.then you kept on repeating the song in the class waktu ada dia pulak tu.
Suara you obviously I cakap tak sedap, you are distracting me.
pleaselah, tak nak belajar keluar!tak payahlah nak kacau konsentrasi orang lain pulak.
Seriously, I tak tahu what kind of person are you.?
menganggap perbuatan awak menghina guru as something that was soooo "fun"
mengganggu orang lain tanpa rasa bersalah
dah lama hidup ke?

tolonglah ubah perangai tu.
I don't really know what is your life aim but please make it something much valauble.
Awak menjatuhkan maruah orang, tapi tak sedar yang awak tengah selak maruah sendiri.
Behave man.
Hell, I hate you! XP


# kalau awak buat perangai sekali lagi, I swear takkan bersabar lagi.