DAY 64: Frenemy! :#

opps! opps!
Don't quickly jump into a conclusion right now. The headlines were absolutely not related to my life__ for this time.
So... Frenemy. What can you understand from this words.
Basically frenemy is word 'friend' and 'enemy' that was blended*I'm not sure whether this term was correct or not, which means one's who pretends to be a friend but actually an enemy. *ala-ala musuh dalam selimutlah tu. Before that I'm glad to mention here that this post wasn't actually 'word of the day' post, okay? :) but can be considered as if you wanted to. LOL

I regard you as my 'best friend'! and what that's means now after you  broke my trust!!!???

This is the first time that I'd run into this word 'frenemy', like seriously!. Thanks to my 'friendship' research just now that I can possibly add new vocab into my list. Haha. The term frenemy might not as familiar as it happen in our life-as far as I'm concern. I'm not used to the usage of this word but I really knew what kind of person was this so-called frnemy. The hidden enemy that we happily regard them as friend however it turn out that he/ she was a rascal. I don't really understand what type of person was these 'frenemy'. Why? Why on earth do you have to back-stab your friend after they honestly declare you as his/hers 'best-friend forever'. Is it a compulsory for you to betray them after the 'love of friendship' that they had present you? Did you? Again. I don't really understand what are the purpose of those betrayer in this world. The crash other's heart , the let down other's emotion, they quisle others trust, for what ? Self-priority? Selfish jerk! *emotional here..lalalala~

It's sweeter when it's true :D

Come on guys! just for the sake of yourself- how can you possibly make use of other's believe. The trust that they did put on you, ain't it priceless- so why you turn it into something worthless? Is it the trust they put on you were unable to make you feel appreciated? Ain't you people? So, what are the thing that can make you feel the absolute appreciation that make you have that fidelity in yourself? tell us now fellow people. Money? *will run out. what else..... cars? *will be damaged etc. all these were temporal. It seems unworthy for me, to be compared with the value of friendship that you forsake just for those temporal cozy that you get from your turnover. Think it deeply. You can develop your own richness with hardship but friend fortune *I mean real-friends were hard to be found. This is not an empty talk from, this is reality. Find it by yourself if you don't believe me or maybe try it out and see the outcome. Learn from your own life and imitate*a little of other's.

For those who'd ever had met those 'frenemy'. Forget them. Those people can't be regarded as true friends there are just fangs that cut wound onto your heart but never mind you can always find "the healer".:)
Friend aren't just friend, they're our confidantes. The one we put out trust on. Smile. Love your friend, appreciate them

If you truly love your friend, you won't be a back-stabber.

#I miss my buddy so much. My twin. Hope you happy there, dear ! HUGS and KISSES xoxo.

DAY 35:Comment rejected somehow.

Pernah tak you met someone that really really annoy you.

Macam dia kutuk you, or maybe menjatuhkan semangat you.

For instance

"Eh, Syeikha you tak sesuailah jadi ....bla...bla..."

"Eh, Syeikha you pasti ke yang you akan capai yang you nak. You bukannya hebat pun kan."

"Syeikha, your voice buatkan you tak sesuailah untuk jadi doktor. Mati nanti pesakit tu" =,='

Aduhai..

macam-macamlah manusia ni, voice pun  can become an issue. Tak pernah pula aku dengar pesakit mati disebabkan voice doktor tu. Sungguhlah tak boleh diterima pakai idea si tukang karut ini.

You know what I don't mind pun if you nak tegur me or whatever it is. I don't mind but please lah berfikiran yang "normal" sikit tak perlulah nak jadi luar biasa sangat pendapat you tu. Mengkelamkan kepala otak aku je berfikir why on earth did you give that comment. Sangat tak masuk akallah dear. 

I don't know atas tujuan apa you did say that but seriously 'tak masuk akal', tak 'in' langsunglah your point of view,sayang oi!.

Haha.

I really don't know what are the thing that you have in your mind fella. Tak tahu langsung what's the purpose of saying that to me. Nak kata you jealous I got nothing untuk buat you jealous dengan I. Nothing. Biasa-biasa je Syeikha Zulaikha ni. Nak kata you nak bagi nasihat....Well, that's kinda weird one, lah pulak..

Anythinglah uolls, yang penting I know what I want right now, I've got my short and long term plan. Dapat tak dapat. Sesuai tak sesuai itu belakang kira. All I know I'm gonna work for it. I'm gonna smack it!

Rezeki kita siapa yang tahu. My life principle senang je. Just go on and work it out. The result? Let it be a question mark!Jyeah!Hahah!

Wise comment, accepted. Unwise comment, lalallalala~ 

#Yang pasti now I'm stuck doing maths tutorial. Susah nau soalan Mr.Alif ni.Haha. XD

DAY 19:Please just understand.

Problem? Always there.
One problem yang till now stay with me::
Tak tahu macam mana nak berterus-terang bout what what I feel. Sometimes can you almost crazy tau. Yelah. Bayangkan eh, for example that particular time you amat amatlah tak berpuas hati kat someone tu but somehow you don't know how to express it.Nak try secara brutal punya expression takut berlaku peperangan dunia kelapan, nak tell them nicely takut mereka mereka itu memperkotak-katikkan kita. In the end you stay in the middle. Terapung- apung.#kepak-kepak





So, that's what happening to me. Paling senang cerita lately nih. Kinda tak berpuas hati dengan someone yang truly tidak mengamalkan sikap kerjasama seperti yang diwar warkan oleh Wonderpet. I always hope that us can work together mengalahkan aur dengan tebing lah. Demi menjaga keamanan setempat kami bersama, but somehow what i got is far far far away from what am I expecting. Sedih sangat :((
tapi tak tahu macam mana nak expresskan kat dia. Karang face to face takut I hurt feeling dia. Nak tahan je macam tak adil pula dunia ni kan. Keadilan itu perlu ye..Yang berat sama dipikul, yang ringan sama dijinjing* cewah!boleh lawan karam singh walia tak??!_double-jerk :D

Oleh kerana,pihak saya sangat kurang bijaksana dalam hal ehwal meluahkan perasaan, jadi diharapkan pihak tuan dan puan untuk faham-faham sendiri. Sebelum hati saya ini meletup disebabkan bebanan menyimpan perasaaan terlalu banyak pihak saya memohon agar pihak tuan dan puan memberikan kerjasama yang sewajarnya. Kerjasama pihak tuan  dan puan didahului dengan ucapan terima kasih.

#Dunia belum kiamat, selagi itu kita masih boleh bertaubat:DDD

DAY 10:Malicious inner voices

Have you ever think about how did yourself learn all this while??
Did ya??
As far as I am concern(*kuikui) most of us don't bother to much about how did they learn.
Me too.Anyone with me?!??
All these while I thought that learning process just come naturally.
Heard to others either in conversation or in lecture and simply absorb all their saying, right??
But things are getting harder lately.
I hardly able to absorb all those information that my lecturer was presenting.
Sometimes totally lost till I ended up saying,
"Ala...takpelah.balik bilik nanti aku study. Kaji sendiri je lah."
Daaaaaa..that's it. and almost 60% of my own kajian.ended up without a start. Got it.?
It's a mess fella.!
Its kinda weird why am I becoming like this...
Maybe because too much facts, figures and, experience stuffed into my brain causing it to have less room for new ideas and thoughts?
Okay. That's totally rubbish.
How- on earth that our brain got its limit.? Ingat ni pendrive ke cik Syeikha oi...=.='
What ever it is, the need for learning never ends, so your desire to do so should always outweigh your desire to be right. The world is changing and new ideas pop up everyday; incorporating them into your life will keep you engaged and relevant.






and....
after few times mind-troubleshoot.
I find out that there's 97.9% of probability that my INNER VOICE was actually disturbing my fact crunching mood. Sort of dangerous malicious virus is now attacking my mind......!(absolute crap mumble.)

Sometimes it talk "diamond",sometimes just "crap.

WHAT?!inner voice??? wth are you talking about.

Oh well baby....
You know the one I am talking about. It's the little voice that offers a running commentary when you are listening to someone. It's the voice that brings up your own opinion about the information being provided.
THE TALKING MIND.


ME,myself always always and always, I repeat again always do that.

When my lecturer start to say this and this
at the same mind my Great fella INNER VOICE would like to say,

'Ooooh.......It's actually like this and this.relate to this and that...',
so on and so forth.
and guess what happen to me???