DAY 88: Ranting di pertengahan jalan.

It's just a depiction for the obstacle. That we may face in our life. The trials that sometimes may undermine the spirit that once, shine brightly. It is a must. A must for these obstacle to be in our life, because not,life gonna be dull. Yes, dull because there's no hardship.

Why am I saying that life without obstacles a.k.a hardship would be so and so dull.
It's because there'll be no challenges. If the world evolves, or your life turns out to be exactly as what you're planning. I'm sure no one would work with such emphasize, like we used to see now as everything can be achieved without any hardship or any obstacles that usually will disrupt your planning of having what you want. But, if there's an obstacles that  we know the fact about, 'how an obstacles can affect our life", we'll surely, automatically be prepared for the chaos, the mischievous that we might face.

Macam ranting, dipertengahan jalan..The anology is like this. Kita telah disetkan dalam mind kita*prepared with the expectation that sometimes there might be 'ranting' that obstruct our way. And what we were thought was to go out from car, or maybe dengan cara brutalnya  melanggar ranting tersebut and 'swooooooshh' memecut laju our Pagani Zonda. Dua cara. The proper and the brutal way.

The proper: Go out from the car.
Angkat ranting, pindahkan ke tepi jalan.. masuk kereta balik dan jalan. As simple as that*dalam analogy je lah.. But this proper way show us the way for us to face the obstacle. Iaitu dengan perancangan walaupun dalam analogy tak nampak macam perancangan yang gempak, but still it's actually a planning tau. Because it got step, it was well-organized,slow but a steady planning in managing obstacle.

The brutal. Hit the ranting and go away.
Yeah. It may seem fast, efficient, and cool way of managing the obstacle. But won't you think that your expansive and branded new Pagani Zonda might have a scratch, even a tiny scratch on it. * no good!no good, Pagani Zonda  dah lah mahal. The same thing applied in your life. Kalau you face the obstacles with an outrageous act* not really, you might ended up with a wound in your life. Don't manage the obstacles harshly, it might hurt you at the end of the day.

Dan cuba fikirkan yang menghalang kamu di tengah jalan bukan sekadar ranting, pokok besar misalnya takkan nak langgar juga kan? lagilah severe keadaannya nanti. So, it's better for us to came out with proper and good, even better  with effective planning, rather than a short, fast way of managing it but somehow in the end, you're the losers.
XOXO.

#Kalau nak perancangan hebat lagi beli chain saw letak dalam kereta. mana tahu ada pokok besar lagi jadi obstacle.haha

DAY 86: Le Brochure et Le Vouchers

Muahahaha... I've sort of French Fever. So, just ignore the title *it's absolutely wrong.LOL

So, I've two untold but somehow will be told later on. Ergghh?! =,=" haha.
Two things for today's post.
First, le brochure. *The brochure.
Second, le vouchers * The vouchers.

Today for our English class we had a presentation on our home-made? self-made brochure. Well, it's one of our English assessment that was kinda cool if we tried to think back. I had such* quite vibrant spirit on this task.-Yeah! kin....da! Nothing much to say here. Maybe the picture explain more? :)

Outer part of the brochure. The right side was the first page.

Inside page of the brochure.

This is the brochure that we had been working on.. But, we just print it onto a normal plain A4 paper. Not on the glossy, hard paper. So, it's a bit dull.. but whatever.. as long as we finish it on time and send it.BROCHURE END~

Le Vouchers that I just received today.
Mummy gonna get u , books.!!!! *evil smile

Le second thing is that I just got my 1Malaysia Books Voucher today. Super excited to look forward for the day whereby I can go out and have a blissful moment of purchasing a whole new bunch of books collection. Come on! It's two-five-o, 250, worth voucher ... and I'm sure I can buy a lot and lots of books especially novels. Hahah. I've got the imagination of books that I'll list it into " Books-to-grab" list as soon I reach the bookstores. LOLOLOL. Thanks for the vouchers as I can spend without worries. Vouchers were so great, why don't they give us vouchers to buy new clothes? 1Malaysia Clothes Vouchers. It seems much better for me.Nguehhehehehe....!
Anyway, keys-off.
XOXO

DAY 82:Platinum Rule#2 Don't touch my stuff without permission.

This is where 'my rule' leads.

Clear and straight to the point.
Don't touch my stuff without my permission.
Yes. Easy to understand but not easily be applied by some of us.


*Bustling sound.

To the fact that it is my right to give others the permission. So, better stop yourself from classified me as super duper "bajet hott.." or what so ever means that related me to person who thought herself as a hottie, a diva etc. *dot dot.

I'm totally believe that most of us weren't into the feeling of liking others who touch, use, play with or move your stuff*with condition without even mind to tell you. Oh come on guys, you're dealing with my stuff, again M.Y- S.T.U.F.F. So, please be considerate and I'm sure if you're ever had to face this situation of "people use your stuff without bother to tell you",  you'll be agitate and obviously irritated. Therefore, in this situation of me explaining to others that I hate people touch and use my stuff without the permission because I feel bad about it. Thank you for understanding me.

When you're using other's stuff without telling the owner beforehand, it shows that you have no respect to them because you are using the owner thing arbitrarily without even care what the owner reaction. You also can possibly troubling the owner at the time when she/he at stake 'really need to use' their stuff but somehow can't find them because you at first had taken their thing without them knowing it. You're the troublemaker!

Sorry to say this, but did you know that when we're using others stuff *without permission you can actually be accused as a thief. I would never ever 'backspacing' this statement. It's the reality. Because you're dealing with other stuff i.e their belonging, equal to their rights. So, anytime the owner can actually charge you under the crime of stealing theirs. So, don't hesitated or be a lazy person by not to tell them you're planning to use theirs. If you're feeling embarrassed without no specific reason, don't hesitate to tell them not by mouth, but with sticky notes, sms, what else? whatapps or anything as long as they're informed.*emergency case can be considered but you still need to tell me after using it(emergency only!) Okay?

As a reminder again, please don't use my stuff without my permission. :)

DAY 81: The Second Trial.

Yeah, the title explain part of it. Today I'm facing my second trial. Second time MUET, speaking test. The test that was great enough to make me shiver and go to the toilet more than once. Totally make blood rise, my heart beats uncontrollably and terrific enough to make me stammer and stutter-like seriously. I don't know why and why... This is my second trial though, I already had the experience before. I know the flow. I know what the question is all about but ...*triple  dot for that.

Or... maybe because it is my second trial? I've face it before and maybe because I know what the situation that I'll face make me expect perfection from me. And absolutely perfection really hunt me, then embed me with those freaking fear feeling that make feel so anxious. Yeah... maybe...? and I don't really understand why I can speak better in daily conversation but have those weird time during my speaking test. It's so annoying!

For this time, I've got new team mates* considered as. haha. Haqim and two guys from Uitm Kota Samarahan, who I really don't bother to know their name.lol. Considered okay, maybe? yes. I speak out loud. I pointed out my point but... I don't know if it's appeared to be okay to the examiner. I hope it'll be okay. Out title was 'the factor that make a  perfect Malaysian' and we're given four point as usual (1) fit Malaysian,(2) fearless Malaysian,(3) visionary Malaysian and last  (4) a patriotic Malaysian. As candidate C, I'm presenting the 'visionary' part and seriously I already forget most of the thing that I present.LOL- Short term memory. But what I know my point is the best factor that make up a perfect Malaysian. Because a person with vision knows what they can possibly plan for the future and this future planning was a good component to have a perfect future Malaysia. Don't you think the same thing with me? Don't you. But honestly I tell you here that three of those guy, reject my point ended up choosing a fit Malaysian as a perfect Malaysian. Fine. Majority speaks louder than minority. Therefore, we ended up our task B discussion, believing that 'a fit Malaysian' make up a perfect Malaysian. *but trust me up till now I still stick to the 'visionary Malaysian'. But my opinion was nothing.Daaa... the only,young lady had to accept the guys opinion. Haha.

 I can't believe this. I'm actually updating my post in CAIS aka Library. It was so not privacy. But I'm doing it. Keyboard-OFF. My IT class was actually starting now. LOL.

#Pray I can get the perfect band that I'd been desired till I was diligent and brave enough to have my second trial.

DAY 79: Hot news! Legakan hati yang ketakutan.

Baru tadi berjumpa denga timbalan dekan dan sesuatu perkara yang mengejutkan* agaklah especially for those who want to futher their study to Medical Faculty.

There'll be no interviews for it!

sure?

Yes.Absolutely sure. because it's our timbalan dekan's words kot. 

"There'll be no interview!"

I'm so so glad to hear this from her. Sangat lega. Really lega. Senang cerita lega. Haha. I rasa lega bukan sebab I takut interview but I takut pada "pemilihan interview". It seems so scary at first tapi sekarang tak lah due to the fact that the interview was cancelled. Kan? Apo yang nak ditakutkan lagi jang? Tinggal our final and those carry marks thingy saja lah yang nak dirodok-rodok. Interview considered over! Haha. Tapikan...urmmmm cuba bayangkan ada prompt interview. Haaa. tak ke terkejut segala tulang-tulang urat-urat tua aku. Haha. Tapi tak mungkin kot. Rasanya tak lah.* Aku je yang alien selalu fikir bukan-bukan :D

Interview tak ada, yes- I lega. But rasa kesian pulak dengan kemahiran interview yang kita orang belajar time zaman muda-muda *bajet tua sangat . I mean time sekolah dulu, seniors* the alumni teach us how to face the interviews. We even ada percubaan inteview kot. Macam lawak pun ada. Yelah di'interview' oleh sang-sang senior. Takutlah juga. *kening kening. Takpelah maybe not for this time, next time who knows, kan? haa... time nak minta kerja nanti can be used. 

I met the lecturers, Mr.Chieng yang baik, Mr. Ikhwan cool. eh lecturer Maths belum lagi lah. Esok nantilah pergi. All of them pesan including our timbalan dekan, "study! study!" when I cakap I risau about the result thing.Takutlah ianya tak perfect enough dari sisi mata manusia lain. Kalau aku bedal okay je....kot? Haha. Daripada mulut mereka yang lebih tua dan berpengalaman dan mempunyai taraf pendidikan yang of course lebih tinggi daripada aku dapat conclude: Belajar je lah. Bolehnya jawab tak dapat banyak sikit at least you tak hantar clean exam sheets to lecturers back kan. So considered okay *dengan syarat jawapan tu masuk akal lah.. Jangan pulak korang lukis Troll Face kat situ. Kalau macam tu aku yang bukan lecturer ni pun rasa nak hampuk je. Penat membebel *lecturing dalam kelas takkan seekor pun tak masuk dalam kepala. Macam tu sia-sia lah datang kelas kan, darl semua. 

Kalau based to me,myself ada ja timing I malas nak dengar lecture. Ada je. Tak apa lah. We're humans kan, aku tahu semua rasa bosan boleh wujud bila-bila masa je walaupun kita tak nak. Tak apa lah. Tak dengar kuliah sangat pun tak apa, asal you revise the thing back by yourself.Pandai cari masa lah. Tapi kalau tak pandai cari masa, you have no other choice. Hear the lecture. Nak kuatkan lagi, study. I may not the "4 flat" scorer. But I know what are the way that can make my result look quite okay. You know what I mean, right? * jangan misinterpret sudah. 

Jangan risau kalau you tak score the best sebab menang tak selamanya menang, kalah tak selamanya kalah. Dan dalam dunia ni, nak mencapai cita-cita kita bukan dengan satu cara je. Banyak cara. We've 26 letters to label our plans. So, don't be frustrated. Okay :)

Tok sah lah nangis-nangis. :)

There must be a way. Just search for it. Dunia tak adalah kejam sangat sayang. There's no world of sorrow. It's you! The one that can make it a better place for you and for me... You- decide your choice by yourself. Gunakan otak yang Tuhan bagi. Dia bagi kita otak mesti bersebab. Why not us find the reason why and use 'the why' as our guidance.:)

Okay, I'm quite late for our comm skill lecture ni. XOXO

#jangan sedih-sedih tau. Allah itu ada, Dia terlalu dekat dengan kita. Mintalah bantuannya walau tanpa suara.  

DAY 75: Aku dah bosan.Aku dah bosan.

*sigh, * sigh, *sigh and *sigh again...

"Salam sejahtera 

PERHATIAN kepada PELAJAR ASASI SAINS HAYAT 3
Kelas gantian pada petang ini (15 Feb 2013, 230-430pm) dibatalkan. Sila maklumkan kepada rakan2 yang lain

Sekian"

Inilah perkara yang membuatkan aku mengeluh tak henti-henti. Waktu first tahu pengumuman, I was like...

"What class cancelled? Aku nak buat ape doe. Aku dah sakit badan dah tidur.." said me to my roomate.

Memang sangat lost, tak tahu gila nak buat apa whole evening ni. Seperkara lagi yang buat aku malas nak dengar pengumuman sebegini sebab mesti nanti class tu kena replace next time. Dan perkara tu yang paling buat aku *sigh *sigh. Malas nak pergi kelas ganti. Sebab timing dia mesti tak kena feel, kadang tu petang-petang alam macam ni ada lecture. Punyalah nak katup mata tu hanya Tuhan yang tahu. For this case dia adalah kelas ganti yang bakal digantikan pada satu waktu yang akan ditetapkan nanti. LOL. Kalau dia ganti minggu depan. Aku memang speechless dah minggu depan ada PBL nya. Lab lagi. Tak ke pack nanti minggu depan kalau ada kelas ganti. Hurmmmmm...

Sangat kot!!!! Kalau kat rumah boleh kacau ayah =,=" kat sini....apo eh yang nak dikacau..:P

Takpelah maybe I can something to do this evening. Buat sajalah apa benda pun asalkan masa terisi yang pasti kejap lagi nak shut down terus lappy sebab dia selalu drag me to something worthless. Movie lah, facebooking lah, apa lagi..Oh.oh..survey baju kat butik online lah. pastu mesti end me up  beli something and that's terrible. Buat bazir duit belanja mingguan aku je. Karang ada yang ayah mogok tak nak masuk duit sebab asyik membazir je. So, adalah lebih baik saya Syeikha Zulaikha shut down lappy and pergi baca buku. SEKIAN

*Saya nak kaji software Macromedia Flash malam ni. Kena start project software IT minggu ni juga. Nanti last minute nanti tak termampu nak mengejau *tu kau... dah tukau slang melaka dah.Hahah

EH?! lelebih pulak gambar ni :P haha

DAY 72:Hectic Life. Starts now!

Today is the last day for our mid semester break + Chinese New Year holiday.

I'm sure that start from now* not really now every room in Kolej Seroja would be filled again.

Every room will be lighted again and every part of college would start to have sound again. :)

Everyone *the one who go back home only will unpack their things. They'll start tidying up their 'dust' room. Haha. Thank God. I don't have to face these dusts for this holiday. *shine

And I'm sure each of us will start to worry about our unfinished assignment *not even start actually. I can't believe that the due date would be this Friday and I haven't done anything- not even one question. It's okay. I'm sure the foundation student will start their cooperation at anytime start from now. So, there's nothing much to be worried of-nothing much... Haha

Those who had finished their assignment. This is for you.LOL

Tomorrow- starting at 8.00 am each of us here at UNIMAS East Campus i.e. Kolej Seroja will start our hectic life as a foundation student back after quite long *erghhhh. holiday. We will have our classes, tutorials, labs what else? Hurmmm... study hours* in brackets back. Whatever it is our holiday *boring one. finally ends. Thank God. Haha

Oh?! Looks like tomorrow I'm going to have my express breakfast again and have coffee again!!! 3-in-1 coffee mixed with 3-in-1 oats and I have ..... a breakfast! Haha

This is me with all those delayed work.:((

I can't write much. There's so much undone thing waiting me in real life. *Sigh. Did I have so many dreams during this holiday that I'm not aware that I'm still in a real life? Woot!Woot!

#I've lost my maths skills back.*as if skillful I am all these days. LOL. How am I going to finish my maths assignment? I've already forget few concepts.

How I wish...

DAY 71: Platinum Rule#1 Don't Lie. I hate liars.

Thanks to Adobe Photoshop CS3 again :)

The first PLATINUM RULE to be close to me is not to lie to me, like seriously because I hate liars so much and I know most of us did.

Why I doesn't regard liar as someone to me?

Because by lying, they show their insincerity towards us and what is the purpose of friendship if you lied to each other, right? 

Pretty little liar.

I hate liars also because they are liars and cannot be trusted. Non-trustworthy people should not be regarded as human. What is the purpose of you lying to others? It is especially when it comes to lie about yourselves. Lying about you? Naaaa... That's lame. Just be the way you are and let the world know the real you. If they can't accept it then let them be as long as you know yourselves then who cares what other people think about you. No need for you to lie about yourselves to look good on others sight. That was so fake! and I don't understand how people live in so-called fake life. 

I hate liars because I hate the feeling when we put our trust on someone, she or he just crush it like it was nothing. *I feel I'm so fool to trust you all this while and you don't appreciate it. I hate liars as much as they disappoint me, and trust me I really hate disappointment. I'm not into the feeling of being sad, worthless when someone I trust lied to me. 

  

I know you understand the feeling when someone lied to you. It's a common feeling that most of us 'must' feel because there's liars everywhere. 

I just don't know why, sometimes I can feel the 'aura' of liars surrounding someone met. I don't understand this but I'm obviously don't like his or her aura that I put my step away from them. I'm sorry. Yeah... maybe it was just my over-reactive sensitivity feels towards someone gesture, posture, attitude that I oftentimes analyzed them as 'cannot be trusted'.  But that's for precaution, right? It's better for me to beware of the possibilities before they become realities. It was the reality that I truly hate it. To be fooled, lied what else? Back-stabbed? Who knows?

Pinocchio. Wonder how would it be if us human  got  nose like his.
Every human tell lies. I'm sure it's very long.

DAY 68:Never walk alone?

This is how 'live a fool' think. I'll change it  too "You'll sometimes walk alone"
*No harm Liverpool die-hard-fan.

Never walk alone?

No. No. No. That's truly not me. Absolutely! Why? Because I prefer to walk by myself rather than walk in a       

group. To me walking alone is rather fun than you in group walking together, going somewhere especially if the place that you are heading to is a stone throw from you.

"Oh Syeikha, don't you aware of that danger that you might face if you walk alone?"

"Are you insane? It isn't safe out there!"

" Syeikha...." 

Bla...Bla...bla...* a lots and lots of version of counseling I ever had.

My mum had once commented me not long ago. At that time she called me when I'm on my way back to my college from library at night, alone. And again free counseling from my beloved mum. Come on mum. The library was quite near to my college, don't be too anxious. It's nothing. I can protect myself well and as long as we believe there's Allah to protect us. There's nothing to be feared of. I'm a tough girl. LOL XD 

haha. 

Ha-ha. This is great.

You might think that I'm such an introvert. Being alone and all that but sorry all you thought need to be cleared off as I'm not that kind person. I'm extrovert. I tend to enjoy human interactions and to be enthusiastic, TALKATIVE, assertive and gregarious but sometimes I need my own space of being alone without anyone else disturbing me. Yeah! Sometimes I would go out in group, hang around with them. Laugh together, keep on eyes for cool and cute things together with them* especially clothes, like others I did all that with my friends. But sometimes I don't feel like to be together with anyone. I just want to be A.L.O.N.E. I do my shopping alone. Eat in my favorite restaurant alone. Studying alone #I do this always. :)

What else... walk alone, jog alone and etc. So, you must understand this. It's not that I want to keep a distance from it just that I want my special time with myself.*Am I romantic to myself. Haha.

I suggest you to try this out. It super cool to do things alone by yourselves. You don't have to set up time with anyone. You don't have to wait for anyone. It's all about you. You can 'date' yourselves without considering the other part of you felt okay with it or not. You take as much as time you need without worrying the other part of you, right? You can independently decide what time you wanted to go back. It's all yours and its super cool!*if it's for me, I prefer to go back early because I hate darkness. Haha. That's why sometimes I prefer to do my shopping alone, because if is it in a gang it is an always for them to go back at night. Well, youngsters... *I'm an old lady. For them, "Night is still young, babe!" That's truly not me. Of course not me. : 3

I enjoy my time walking alone like she does. And it's cool!

However, anything is on you. You're the one who'll decide what are you up to, right? Take a break, have thought, and got hits! XOXO

# I haven't done my assignment yet. Waarrrgh! Mid semester is a nightmare with this assignment....!

I'll absolutely not going to walk by myself at night next time. Haha!

DAY 67:Borrow|Lend

We never stop borrowing and lending.

You borrow mine. I'm borrowing yours. It's the thing that always happens in our life whether you realize it or not it still occurs. 

The thing that I was going to highlight here is 'the responsibilities' to take care others belonging properly, by means in a way that the owner would love it. Some of the people, yeah the know how to borrow something from other however they weren't that responsible to that particular thing until the owner felt unsatisfied with him/her. 

Up to certain situation, we did commented on their behavior but well... you know human, they never take it seriously and if they take it seriously, they just take it seriously, hatred and sayings such as, "Ahh...you're being so stingy, fussy and etc" . Oh...real jerk! When this situation happen it turns out that it is actually us*again. Us! Were the one to be blamed? *What the hell was that? I am the owner*the rightful owner and when I play the role as the real owner then I'm the one to be blamed? For what reason people? Just tell me. For telling you to take a good care of my belongings? * Is it wrong? Oh. Come on... Make up your mind. Don't be silly ... It is crystal clear I'm the owner. I'm the one who buy those things. In sum, I'm the owner! So, where and when on earth did the people said that the owner had no rights on his/her belonging? Huh?

It is you! The borrower should go and have himself or herself reflected on a mirror. Look at yourself. Who are you, before having your forefinger pointing at me? Got it?! 

Ha-ha. Am I too emotional? Suddenly realize it. LOL Syeikha. Over-acting. It's actually not currently happening in my life though. It just what I' thinking. The habit of certain people. Borrowing something but not caring of taking a hold of responsibilities to take a good care of that particular thing that they are borrowing. Took less about what the owner feel when you damaging his/her things. Please people; put yourself in the owner shoes. What would you feel when the thing that you care and love most was spoiled.*not by yourself, it even worse if it was spoiled by others. If you got the feeling, then brace yourself. Take a good care of that thing that you're borrowing. You know what? This world is round. It kept on spinning*(I'm not sure if it's the perfect term to explain), on and on. So, what comes around goes around. What you do now, you'll get it back sooner or later. It's karma thing people. Therefore, take a deep thought of what you're doing. Yeah, damaging others belonging were not a big deal or not to significant for some of us but at least try yourself to make it worth. LOL. XOXO

*You know what if I'm the owner. Me myself hate the borrower who less care on the thing that they did borrow from me.

Maybe we should have the borrowing rules printed out and give it to the borrower

DAY 66:Pimple? Zap it!

Stop it! Don't pinch your pimple.It might getting worst.

"Pimple! Oh noooo!"

Most of you must have faced this situation before, right? And the days go on with those pimple getting bigger and eventually leave you a scar*again, scar! What makes it even worst is that, it's really hard to get rid those scars. The range of products in market doesn't promise you, that the scar and growing pimples would be removed. 

So, once in a blue moon...LOL. Today I've a tips and tricks to be shared with my beloved readers. Try it out! Who knows it might work out. That bothersome, frustrating acne might start to diminish and disappear, like ever. :)

I've a lot of tips here*a bunch of collection that I search throughout the magazines and internet and compile it here. Maybe you should try it one by one, who knows one of it might be the most effective for you!

1. Have you heard about aloe Vera? Take its gel and put in onto the scarred areas. Rinse with warm water after the gel dried on your face. Its gel also can also be made into a juice and drink it one times per day.*I won't drink it. It stinks. Haha. Maybe we can move on to next tip.

2. Squeeze lemon to get the juice. Put it on your face 2 times daily and drink the lemon juice.*accepted

Lemmmooon!

3. Blend cucumber and filter it. Take the cucumber husks rub on your face. After half an hour, rinse with   

Warm water.

4. Take 10 pieces of sireh*betel leaf and grind the leaf. Then rub the scarred place. Wash after it dry.

5. Mix honey with grinded cinnamon .Apply it on face during night. Wash with warm water the next day. Apply it for three times a week.

Cinnamon.

6. Take a piece of cassava and peel the skin. Discard the skin. Then clean and grate the cassava .Next, Crush it to get the water. Rub the water on your scars.

7. the most simple way was to mix honey and powder*bedak sejuk eh. And then rub in your scars. As simple as that!

Powder*bedak sejuk

Who knows at the end of the day.You might transform. Haha

DAY 64: Frenemy! :#

opps! opps!
Don't quickly jump into a conclusion right now. The headlines were absolutely not related to my life__ for this time.
So... Frenemy. What can you understand from this words.
Basically frenemy is word 'friend' and 'enemy' that was blended*I'm not sure whether this term was correct or not, which means one's who pretends to be a friend but actually an enemy. *ala-ala musuh dalam selimutlah tu. Before that I'm glad to mention here that this post wasn't actually 'word of the day' post, okay? :) but can be considered as if you wanted to. LOL

I regard you as my 'best friend'! and what that's means now after you  broke my trust!!!???

This is the first time that I'd run into this word 'frenemy', like seriously!. Thanks to my 'friendship' research just now that I can possibly add new vocab into my list. Haha. The term frenemy might not as familiar as it happen in our life-as far as I'm concern. I'm not used to the usage of this word but I really knew what kind of person was this so-called frnemy. The hidden enemy that we happily regard them as friend however it turn out that he/ she was a rascal. I don't really understand what type of person was these 'frenemy'. Why? Why on earth do you have to back-stab your friend after they honestly declare you as his/hers 'best-friend forever'. Is it a compulsory for you to betray them after the 'love of friendship' that they had present you? Did you? Again. I don't really understand what are the purpose of those betrayer in this world. The crash other's heart , the let down other's emotion, they quisle others trust, for what ? Self-priority? Selfish jerk! *emotional here..lalalala~

It's sweeter when it's true :D

Come on guys! just for the sake of yourself- how can you possibly make use of other's believe. The trust that they did put on you, ain't it priceless- so why you turn it into something worthless? Is it the trust they put on you were unable to make you feel appreciated? Ain't you people? So, what are the thing that can make you feel the absolute appreciation that make you have that fidelity in yourself? tell us now fellow people. Money? *will run out. what else..... cars? *will be damaged etc. all these were temporal. It seems unworthy for me, to be compared with the value of friendship that you forsake just for those temporal cozy that you get from your turnover. Think it deeply. You can develop your own richness with hardship but friend fortune *I mean real-friends were hard to be found. This is not an empty talk from, this is reality. Find it by yourself if you don't believe me or maybe try it out and see the outcome. Learn from your own life and imitate*a little of other's.

For those who'd ever had met those 'frenemy'. Forget them. Those people can't be regarded as true friends there are just fangs that cut wound onto your heart but never mind you can always find "the healer".:)
Friend aren't just friend, they're our confidantes. The one we put out trust on. Smile. Love your friend, appreciate them

If you truly love your friend, you won't be a back-stabber.

#I miss my buddy so much. My twin. Hope you happy there, dear ! HUGS and KISSES xoxo.

DAY 62:Alone in Silence

Silence.
One word describe Kolej Seroja now. No more laughing, chatting echo heard. I can't hear anything accept for the 'meowing' sound of the college settler, the cats. I got nothing else to do today accept for novel-ing, face booking, movie-ing last but not least *lol blogging. Sangatlah bosan. I'm tired of all these activities. Really really tired of it. Sick. Whole day spend all of my time, tacking my eyes to computer screen Absolute shortsightedness lah. If I'm doing my reading, means back pain. Arghh. Lenguh-lenguh satu badan. Kalau tak mengantuk lepas tu tertidur. Bangun-bangun. "Eh??!!dah berjam aku tidur!!!" , sekali lagi pembaziran waktu dalam hidup. Not doing anything beneficial. Truly not helpful for my time consume. Time throwing. The silence was kind of scary-not kind of, but really scary even I've this experience before, was left in college without with me. Selalu sangat stay lama kat college. Kalau balik semenanjung pun selalu antara yang terakhirlah. Sangatlah creepy for me to live here. Nak keluar bilik pun agak teragak-agak. However, if I kept holding onto the jitters, how on earth I can live by myself, alone-isn't it? So I have to, whether I want it or not. :)
The thing that I really hate it, when it comes about the holiday without others in college is, cafe was closed. Damn it! Arghhh.. When cafe was closed I have to walk out *again walk out to Desa Ilmu to have my meal. I don't really mind to walk out but when I got blister on feet every time I walk* everytime I forgot to put my socks on. Then, I call it hell. It hurt so much- the more it hurts when it comes in contact with water. Awww!!! It hurts so much. Credits to everyone who stays in wing BC because of they were at home right now as I can shout as much I want when my feet hurts so much. lol. Release the tense. Haha.
Keyboard off. Time to spend my 'alone' time as well as possible.lol

#oh! this time I've my roommate with me.

DAY 60:Finally...it ends.

Our war was finally end. Quite relieve. Huhhhh..* deep breath...
The question was awesome! especially our essay question. Exactly the same as the one that we did in class before this-the same! But the 'melancholy' part #just remember this word.totally forgot about it when I want to express the sadness in my essay.damn! ... is that I know the idea of that particular question but I somehow realize that the structure of my essay*the one in the exam was kind of loose. No determination. It's kind of 'beat around the bush' like I was mumbling in the essay babbling about the deforestation without a clear means. I had the point*actually it was given. but it was not fully clarified, I just explain it on the base and tadaa..! Finish.

I am expecting this reaction when my English coordinator read my essay

 That's the situation for my English paper today. The sentence arrangement was shit. I think I've lost my ability to write an article or and essay in proper manner. The whole idea was a piece of junk as I hate the way I'm explaining the things. No maturation there. It was almost like a little kid's essay. Rubbish!*at least for me. Yes, by means of word used I can get quite*quite yeah good word usage but the grammar organization.? Again.? Please flush away my essay. I totally hate it even though it was written by myself. For grammar I was quite don't really care about it # not much. but for the sentence structure?It's hell! I've really lost my ability write it in versatile way.Like the one I used*for quite sometime... to be. It had a lot of mumbling in it that makes it long - really long but zero! No facts!. Just a babbling. .. I really need to do something with it or else I'm going to die or at least score bad in my upcoming MUET test. Seriously! Make up your writing Syeikha!. Grammar, sentence organization, style of writing * make it versatile-literally! so for your upcoming MUET test you can achieve your desired band 5 or 6. Not below than that! Mind it!
The first thing that I've to do is to correct back my writing style in this blog. The way I expressed my writing in this blog was really childish and unorganized. (Peeps, did you have any difficulties in attaining the idea of my past post.?Are you?Please, comment below).

LOL. That's soooo me!The latest me.-Terrible

I think I really really have to do a change here and to be active back in my reading. Not just read those books that related to my studies, I have to read others though. Speaking. Yes! That's included too. The last time I really really speak English. I mean real English was many years back. Long lost time. Now-not now, the few years back I speak 'rojak' English as a trend and I think it looks enjoyable though.*fool. Now, I have to face the consequence, my English wasn't getting better, it was getting worst-really worst.No doubt.!

Credit

and... what else??!.....Oh! Switch 'on' my mind to catch any newest issue, general information. That may help. Miss the time I would find any article on something, keep it and read it back when I'm free. Use the issue in my essay. It really help me-a lot! and....read the 'high level magazine' not the cheeky, cheesy or what ever style magazine that would make my thinking to be immature. During my primary level I've read the 'high level thinking magazine' that really make me 'advance' from others especially in giving the opinion but ever since I'm in form 4, I've totally stop reading those 'high level thingy' and preferred the 'childish magazine' that had no critical thinking written in it just f.u.n. awww..such a lost...!It's a regret.
I REALLY NEED A CHANGE!REAL CHANGE....

*let's pod-casting! to learn their 'lingo'! So that we can have their accent in our daily pronunciation. Voila'!!!

XOXO

DAY 59:Feels like it's totally end.:D

Akhirnya, saat-saat penantian bagi setiap pelajar Hayat seantero Asasi bermula dan berakhir.
Peperiksaan subjek Biology yang membuatkan mereka makan tak basah, tidur tak kenyang dan mandi tak lena akhirnya berjaya juga ditempuhi
*ada  bakat jadi pemberita aku ni :D LOL
Yeah!seperti yang ditulis diatas akhirnya exam Biology sudah berjaya aku tempuhi. Kepenatan #dalam kurungan yang dialami semasa menghafal dengan berbagai gaya mantap; kuak rentang, bertapa, menonggeng semua style pun ada akhirnya dapat diluahkan dalam kertas jawapan berlambang Unimas. LOL
relieve.at least for now.
Aku keluar tadi about 3.30pm. aisyeh! keluar berduyun-duyun bebudak Physics balik kolej. Ada sejam lagi kut exam punya timing. Senang sangat ke Physics sampai semangat sangat diaorang keluar. Seriously, aku percaya kenapa budak fizikal jenis-jenis chill sudah. Tengoklah sejam  lagi kot baru exam habis berduyun-duyun yang keluar.Budak hayat seketul-seketul keluar pun susah nak nampak time macam ni. Kesian budak hayat.Sobss.Sobbsss..lololol
habis exam Biology rasa macam semua exam dah abis. The eternity end lah. padahal esok ada lagi satu paper BI. Semua dah pakat-pakat rancang nak tidur awal lah. Nak keluar lah. Macam BI tu takde apa-apa lah.Kesian BI diketepikan, lagi-lagi kalau timing exam dia sehari lepas Biology, lagi lah budak-budak ni semua buat muka troll face berkilo-kilo. Sebab malam before Biology most of us dah menye-tay up kan diri sampai tak ingat nak tidur. Habis exam Biology terus rancang nak qadak tidur yang terkorban malam tu. So, memang tak ada sinaran lah untuk BI untuk sesetengah ye, sesetengah student.LOL
Apa-apa je lah yang pasti esok last paper pastu cuti. tapi aku macam tak cuti sebab tak balik semenanjung mid semester punya cuti ni. Sedih oi.. Sob.Sob dah lah rindu ibu dengan ayah. Puan lagi,Adik..senang cerita semua lah. plus aku dah nak muntah tengok pemandangan kolej ni. Mana tak nya dah lama tak keluar jalan-jalan walaupun ke  'the Spring' je. :(
Bosan.

DAY 58: The end...but will be continued:D

The end...
That's  it! I've just finished my Chemistry exam with such glory and confidence. Haha.
Most of the question turned out to be quite exactly from what I expect it to be.LOL*macam peramal soalan lah pulak.
Senang cerita, most of the qeustion ala-ala sama macam latihan yang dibuat oleh pacal ini. Jadi ber-gum-bira lah sedikit time menjawab soalan tu tadi but I really hope that my 'beloved' carelessness didn't haunt me today. Prayer..
Oh. But tadi aku ada kekeliruan pasal graph energy tu sebab aku tak ingat endothermic or exothermic macam mana. Part exo endo tu memang dari sem lepas lagi aku asyik confuse je. Padahal senang tahap makanan ringan*tak masuk akal perumpamaan ni ye adik-adik.Sesat. Itu pun aku tak boleh nak ingat lepas ni kena lukis banyak-banyak tampal keliling bilik. Lagi satu ethanol and acetone which one of them is polar and non polar. Aiseh dah bepuluh soalan aku jawab pasal acetone ethanol ni pun aku tak boleh nak ingat. Sayangnya tak boleh nak google time exam at least aku boleh assured sikit dengan jawapan aku. Haila aiiii. So, dengan penuh tawakal nya aku jawab je lah macam dalam lecture note punya situation. Yakin je lah kan datuk datuk sekalian. Haha.

Moral of the story jangan asyik nak google je. Google sekali je lepas tu simpan dalam otak tak yah nak reset-reset.

Credit
Our dewan periksa tadi.KUIKUI

Find me! 4th row from right(picture)
White tudung.LULz

Chemistry Show ::: END

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DAY 54:QUIZ MATHS yang seh-nang (_00_)

Breath in, breath out. Breath in, breath out.. Breath in, breath out.. Breath in, breath out.... Breath in, breath out....*terlebih sudah
Yeah! Quiz maths tadi memanglah sangat-sangat gempak untuk aku. Huahuahua. Biasalah 'genius maths' katakan.*penipuan. Quiz-quiz jadah itik ni memang menguji kesabaran jiwa dan raga aku betullah. Time mula-mula dapat kertas. Aku punya syok tahap menonggenglah. Dua soalan je kut. Lek lek lu. Tapi bila dah start buat !@#$%^ *this one bukan represent carutan eh.It represent kecelaruan minda yang aku alami. First question, memang lancar je lah tangan ni tulis-tulis. Masuk soalan 2, cuba-cubalah juga nak kekalkan kelancaran kepala otak..So tangan ni tulis-tulislah. First, cari coordinates pastu carik inflection..bila nak buat-buat tetiba stuck. Apakah? Macam pelik tahap monyet glow in the dark *kui.kui.terselit pulak cerita dalam kelas Mr Faizal. Eh.Eh. sambung cerita balik... Bila dah stuck tu mula lah merewang. Dalam otak tu memang takde benda lain yang aku fikir, mesti "Technique dah betul dah ni,silap kira lagilah ni." Try kira-kira balik. Tak dapat juga tetap weird jawapan dia ni. Termenung kejap. Tukar posisi duduk. Kuak rentang, kuak kupu-kupu, kekuda kambing.Eh? Semua aku buat dah tak pikir tu dewan kuliah ke apa dah *obviously aku ni bukan seorang wanita yang bersopan-santun seperti yang digembar-gemburkan.lololol. Tadi pakai pen teurs tukar pencil, try kira-kira kat tepi pulak. Blurr lagi. Chicken punya soalan. Ape ke peliknya? Nak kira balik ke tak.?Nak ke tak? Nak ke tak? Aishhh..Kalau nak kira balik kena liquid semua benda ni balik masa tinggal half hour je nih..Mata aku dah sakit nak, kepala pun dah cucuk-cucuk ni.Ah..lantaklah!!!#Angkat tangan terus blah dari dewan.Hahaha. Hebat sungguh ending aku. Memang tak beretika sungguh. Ada ke patut tinggalkan dewan padahal memang dah tahu lagi sekor soalan tu memang diyakini jawapan nya salah. LOL. Midsem minggu depan aku buat perangai macam ini.
So korang apakah pengajaran yang anda dapat hari ini.
'Jangan guna pen......Nanti malas nak padam...!!!"
 Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......Salah!
Pengajarannya adalah lain kali kalau nak jawab soalan fiir dulu jangan pakai tulis je terus. Interpret what the question are dulu baru fiki jalan kerja dia. Aku tadi terus buat jalan kerja je. Tak interpret betul-betul pun. Ingatkan soalan tu sama maca soalan yang aku biasa buat latihan. Tetiba dia manipulate lah pulak. Okay.Fikir dulu sebelum jawab :))
Oh! dan berjuang hingga ke saat terakhir nanti menyesal tak sudah. Faham?!
Mid sem minggu depan !T.T

* tadi acik private message aku kat fb. Dia rindu aku. Suruh balik.Masalahnya.....aku tak baiklah cuti midsem ni :'(

DAY 51:Typical Maths Thinking.|TMT|

I'm quite bad on numbers but quite advance on words. LOL

the things that I've just realize it just now. The special thing about me is that I'd analyze written words better than analyzing number. That's it.! 

Suddenly, I remember the times when I'm still in school. I can write a very very long essay in short time but take such along time to solve mathematical question that only need a few step to solve it. Huh?! I don't I should be proud of this or feel down because of this. Till now I still wonder why on earth it is hard for me to deal with these number thingy. Why? I've to make a lot of effort if I want to score Maths in exam. Sometimes, I do jealous with some of my friends. They are so so advance in Maths. It's not because they are advance then I'm jealous of them but it's because they are so damn crazy that they can score 100% easily. I can still remember( * I thought so). during I'm in form  three if I'm not mistaken. There's a guy that left his calculator during our Maths exam but he just go on with the exam without bother himself to find any calculator. The exam just go on like usual for him but somehow when the results were out, it turns out that, he got 100% for his test. Crap!*for me. I'm the one with super modern calculator can even beat him. The worst part is, I was left behind him far apart. A big difference in our marks. That's so annoying isn't it? At least for me. I don't know if any of you do feel the same with me or not. :(

So, because the 'loser' part of me in Maths makes me to be one of 'the haters'. Honestly speaking, my body will sometimes lost it's inner energy when I have Maths class and especially TEST. The shivering part was double triple awful. It takes few minutes before it can settle down. It's terrible. Some of the people in my life do remind me. "Maths was so freaking easy", "Maths was so enjoyable", "Maths just need an exercise' and etc. But seriously and truthfully I said that, "Maths was so hard.Really really hard.For me!". Yeah! You did say about the exercise things and so on but believe me, even with a lot lot of exercise I can't be that advance because of some ruthless small mistakes that I make. That's me. Always and always making small mistakes that cause big effect to my answer every time I do Maths. Arghhhh!!! My carelessness. That's the problem. It's a 'always' for me. *cries*

 Oh Maths why can't you be easy towards me #pleading.Please.....

Seriously, I don't know why we need those complicated Maths. I hope this semester is the last time I see you Maths *the complicated ones'. :P