DAY 78: Keep Faith and Reach the Peak.

"I can almost see itThat dream I am dreamingBut there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm takingEvery move I make feelsLost with no directionMy faith is shaking
But I gotta keep tryingGotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb
The struggles I'm facingThe chances I'm takingSometimes might knock me downBut no, I'm not breaking
I may not know itBut these are the moments thatI'm gonna remember most, yeahJust gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strongJust keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be an uphill battleSomebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbingKeep the faith, babyIt's all about, it's all about the climbKeep the faith, keep your faith, whoa" MILEY CYRUS - THE CLIMB LYRICS 



Yes. I can almost see. The dream I've dreaming all these while. The dream that be the reason for every step I'm taking. I'm moving on by holding on to this dream and keep fighting, I keep trying. Even though sometimes I felt like I can't but I gotta keep strong to reach it. They might try to let me down but believe me... I'm gonna keep strong, holding to the faith that I can. Yes. I can!


I'm moving on but life isn't how fast I get there and ain't about what's waiting on the other side. But it's the climb. The climb. How hard the climb is, no matter how long it would be, just keep faith and we'll be reaching the peak soon. Keep on moving no matter how hard it is. Yeah I gotta believe that sometimes I gonna have to lose because life isn't just about winning but it a combination of win and lose. However, never lose faith on what you're up to,just keep on trying!

I've been dreaming of being a doctor, but I don't want it stays as a dream forever. Struggles, fight, win and lose... I have to face all these up and down. 
It's okay if I'm lose at the middle of the track but I fight back and start it all over again with the faith that in the end, I'll hold it inside my hand. 
It's okay if I'm a bit late as long as at the end I fulfilled my dream.
Let go all those inferiority, bring all those extraordinary.
No matter what happen I can as long as I...
KEEP FAITH. 

I'll make sure in the end, I'll be looking like this. A DOCTOR.
I won't take this as a dream anymore but it's gonna be a reality.KEEP FAITH!

DAY 27:Tazkirah| Sedu-seduXD

Pejam celik. Pejam celik. Kejap je dah nak sebulan kan? Macam tak percaya je.
Rasa macam baru semala je balik ke Sarawak ni.#hiperbola.
Cepatnya masa bergerak tak terkejar dek den ni ah.
Laju sangat. After 4 weeks I started my Semester 2, kalau kira-kira ada lagi 4 minggu= sebulan lagi untuk prepare for my mid semester.

"Pergghh..poyo nya hang pa nak prepare awal-awal mid sem.Tolonglah!"

Excuse me. Suka hatilah nak prepare awal ke tak. My future kot. Not yours. Kalau you rasa I'm kinda annoying sebab nak prepare for my "mid sem" it's up to you. No harm. Get on with your annoyance. Do I look like I care?? #emo sebentar.





Sesi tazkirah diri..
Oh God. Seriously dah sebulan meyh. I'm not fully prepared yet lah. Maths belum sifu lagi these two chapter. Biology masih dalam proses menghadam chapter Immnunology tu, sekarang ni dah masuk Genetics lah pula lagi parah. The past pun I belum pegang dalam tangan lagi ni. Chemistry je yang agak okay because I rajin sangat buat tutorial dia. but somehow Chemistry ni haru sikit. Memang time revising and tutorial-ing I bajet faham tahap petala ke tujuh, ke lapan. Tapi once exam rasa macam tak pernah belajar je. Padahal tutorial buat selalu okay je. Mesti lecturer ada hidden agenda behind exam paper ni. :(
Ke aku yang problematic??
Masalah. Masalah.
Sekarang ni macam hari-hari je kena buat tazkirah diri.
Makin hari, makin less my study hour.sangatlah less:(
lagi-lagi hari Sabtu and Ahad, memang penghulu segala tidurlah hari cuti macam ni. Macam manalah nak 4-flat kalau macam ni =,='
Tiba-tiba rasa sedih pulak :((
Takut pun ada. Dahlah diorang cakap for Medicine Faculty untuk batch kitaorang ada interview, lepas tu will be selected based on our Semester 1 and this Mid semester 2 test.
Argghhhhh. nak tak nak kena perform this Mid Semester jugak.:(
Syeikha,
Fikir....fikir....
Which activity yang agak-agak melalaikan yang you must cut off dia.?

Movie?
melalaikan...*bergema
- abis nak buat apa? Padam movie collection dalam lappy?
Tak nak ah. Penat download. Banyak tak habis tengok lagi :(

Facebooking?
Lalai je.
-Deactive facebook? But nanti Pre-U punya announcement kat facebook.
Tak boleh!Tak boleh!

Blogging!!?
Err...err...No comment.Don't know should be categorized under things that waste the time or not-lost!

Rasanya other than these three things tak ambil banyak masa aku kot.
Novel-ing masih dalam kawalan because aku baca time cuti panjang je.
Makan?
Takkan makan pun buang=g masa kot.
"Makan tak buang masa. tapi cara kau makan yang buang masa! Bertahun nak menunggu."
LOLXD
Fineee....nanti aku blender semua makanan biar senang!Laju sikit makan nanti:P

Setakat ni. Benda-benda ni yang aku nampak disturbing. Tak tahulah kalau ada benda lain kan?

*Pssst..psst..ingat nak buat work out lah. Nak senaman sikit baru badan sihat sikit nak study.Kan?:D

DAY 16:Set up the goals of yours|Achieve it!

"Alaaa.mentang-mentanglah dah nak new year startlah posting things like goals goals segala.Sepak bola masuk gol je lah"

Hey!Hey!
Guys this thing that I was posting today has nothing to do with the upcoming new year eh. Not.Not at all.
have the thought  of writing this because our beloved English coordinator was asking us.

"So till now, what have you all achieved your goal for this year?"

All of us like,"....."

then she said,"No one had achieved anything?

Suddenly there's a voices came out," We don't even know what we want Madam."

SET!
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"Seriously?!then how did you know that you have achieved anything.?"

"It's just come, Madam!"Ryan reply her.

"It's all miracle,Madam.Miracle!" me added up.

So that's the event that had brought me to this "Goals" thingy.

Our Madam had achieved most of her goals except for two ;
 reducing her weight and travelling overseas.
but that's not the matter that I want to bring up now.
It's the thing that she did have her goals and enthusiastically try to achieve her goals.

PLAN.
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I was impressed by the spirit that she had brought out. So impressive!

because of I was sooo   terpengaruh with her.
I've realize the importance of having a goals and achieving it
tak jadi juga if you just set your goal but put no effort to achieve it it.Kan?
like my last goal
Konon-kononnya nak 4flat but my effort was like,
 "tiiiiiittttt........tiitt.....tiiiiiitttttt...ttiiiii.....titititititiitittit"
"Maaf pesakit tak dapat diselamatkan".

ACHIEVE!
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 Nazak sangatlah effort yang saya tampilkan ye tuan dan puan sekalian.
Guys,
Make sure you really really understand what your goals is.
and after knowing what it's all about then plan ; what you should do, when should you start, how can you achieve it and etc.
By doing this you'll have a clear view of what you gonna do to achieve your goals.
Next is,long lasting enthusiasm.
Why did I add long lasting there?
Pernah tak dengar peribahasa "hangat hangat tahi ayam"
that's it!
the problem when you just have your enthusiasm waktu awal awal je, as time goes on you pun lemah longlai tak berdaya lagi.Got it.
Long lasting enthusiasm, hold into it.Okay!:)))

So peeps, anything our goals is just work it out and achieve it. God Bless!:D



#just now I ada public speaking and I believe that I'd it well XD
Wedding thing.Takdelah sebencana like what I thought, okay je!

DAY 12:Hello, SIR CADAVER:)

Wooooo....
that's creepy.
Hello sir cadaver?
Are you getting mad?I know life is getting harder Syeikha but please make up your mind...

LOLXD
well peeps.
Its not that I'm getting crazy or whatsoever
Its just that today was a memorable day for me.
for the FIRST TIME in my life
I'd meet sir cadaver
FIRST TIME fella.Its my first time.
Honestly, I was too excited for this first true-to-life meeting with dead people.
What makes it becoming extra cooler is that the cadaver was preserved with formalin, chemical used to ensure the restoration of the softness and flexibility of the cadaver.
The fact that able to impress me is that all these three male cadaver was actually kept for 15 years time. That's totally impressive.15 years?! That totally a long gap of time. It must be the process  of embalming was so so great or no doubt the chemical used was really really strong enough to ensure those cadaver in good condition.Right?!
Visit to a mortuary was totally an eerie experience, but somehow it gives us a lot.
Experience and knowledge.(#experience.no doubt.knowledge kureng sikit coz takut sgt time doktor explain tu + eden terkebelakang sikit,tak nampak doktor godok mayat:(  )
I'd touch the cadavers.
You.What Syeikha?!
Well..I TOUCH THE CADAVER.
Oh Merciful Allah
totally the moment that I touch them was,
Aaaaaaa!
Sumpah takut.but for the first touch je laa.After that I'm getting better.Thank God,I have a lots lots of friend around me.Sampai bergerak tempat letak mayat tu. Semangat sangat all of us nak "meraba" mayat tu.hahha
Trust it was super cool!!

My visit to FPSK wasn't all about mayat ye kengkawan.
Actually,we do visit some other place in FPSK
like pathology and anatomy museum , and physiology lab.
but maybe we are rushing so feeling tu pun rushinglah.
what so great about pathology and anatomy museum is that, this is the place that they kept all the preserved diseased body parts and plastic model of our body.
Menarik?Yes, it is but tak sempat nak merewang here and there
Dah kena panggil to move to next station.
Upsetting,I manage to see 3 shelves of the preserved body parts je kot. The others sekilas pandang je.
Pray to Allah that I was able to further my studies here so that bolehlah saya merewang menghayati those things.:))
by the way, I was told that pathology and anatomy museum was second library for medical student.
Alangkah indahnya kalau aku jadi student medical. Nak menghadap those thing puas puas sampai muntah ler.haahaa.

In pyhsiology lab we was exposed to the study of mechanic of living organism. Sort of applying physic together with biology for the purpose of medical. The machine here was soo awesome :)
New things that I did learnt here is how to check the blood pressure using mercury sphygmomanometer.
I really wanna try it. Kenapalah the instructor tak tanya,"Did any of you wanna try.?"
For sure, I'm the one ynag akan menawarkan diri :D
but malangnya tidak ada soalan sebegitu eh:(

Mercury sphygmomanometer.
Kalau ada rezeki aku,tengok satu hari nanti aku picit picit kau.haha
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So that's it. This visit gave me a lot. experience, knowledge and rasa takut nak pergi tandas seorang diri.Sekian.LOLXD

P/S: Kan best ada gambar for today's visit.Especially kat mortuary tu.Malangnya tidak dibenarkan mengambil gambar ye.Kalau bagi pun aku dengan bangganya berkata TAK NAK!:P